Hi All,

It has been a while since I posted, work has been crazy and challenging due to my work partner being out of action for 6 weeks.

The past two months have been crazy and not so fun at all, Dysphoria has gone through the roof and the thoughts of transition taking over my life again since work has slowed down.

My therapist has been amazing and helpful, I have now seen her 5 times in the last few months and well lets just say I don't think I have ever felt so comfortable and more myself then I ever have talking to anybody else I was even able to show her pictures of me with my hair and make up and she was very much amazed and made me feel happy.

Sadly as much as I enjoy the way I feel while I am there it does not help while I am not. Home life is crazy with the wife and the kids and even though me and my wife have been very happy with each other I just feel like I am just still pretending all of the time for her, I have told her I might be transgender but I have not told her I wish to transition and start HRT.

This is also becoming more of a reality as my therapist has referred me to a friend of hers who is a doctor and can prescribe HRT medication so this is in my reach but home life and everything else is just stopping me from doing this.

I have booked an appointment with this doctor for the end of January to at least see where this goes and maybe get a script for the medication and sit on it for a while but as I keep telling my therapist, If I wasn't going to do this and transition I wouldn't be slowly moving towards it all the time.

Thanks for reading and I also would just like to say thank you all, You are all the only support I really have other than my therapist right now.  I do plan to go out and meet other trans people soon <3

Wow!  It sounds like you are finally on the right path with the help of your therapist.  Best of luck on your journey!

It is good that you are open with your therapist. You really need to let your wife know that you want to transition. It's really scary and takes a lot of courage. When I finally fessed up to my wife, she told me she was relieved that I was finally telling her the whole truth. She's still nervous about the future, but she knows that life with me living as a man has been almost unbearable for the ten years we have been together and since coming out to her and starting HRT I am a lot easier to live with.

I can't guarantee that your wife's reaction will be positive, but it's a step you need to take. You eventually have to tell her the whole truth.