Ladies, don't let the title fool ya into thinking I am down about being home alone.  With the kiddos and the Wicked Stepmother (mom) gone to her Brother's, I finally get the peaceful solace of a quiet house!   No more screaming, yelling and other such nonsense!  It gives me time to reflect on how I got to this point of salvation and the excitement of a new life in 2019 as I earnestly "begin the transition sequence". (Old Trekkie in me).  So, any one else home tonight and would like to strike up a conversation?  Time to ring in the New Year with some House Chardonnay and a cozy keyboard.

Love your fluttershy avatar!!  Right now I'm working up the courage to come out to my wife... she's up stairs with the kids and will be down any minute. Excited yet scared... kinda wish in a way I had the place to myself tonight, at least for a while to listen to some (will sound nerdy....) two steps from hell epic playlists on YouTube to really work up my courage... for some reason that stuff makes me feel bullet proof lol

Home alone too - with some Riesling.  At my age I have had a lot of great NYEs some terrible ones and some meh.
Sometimes meh isn't a bad thing     Watching rented movies - not my best NYE but definitely not the worst.

My father would go our and drink any night of the week but this one. He called it, Amateur night. Honestly, consider yourself one of the smart, safe and lucky ones if you're safe at home this evening. Happy New Years, guys  Here's to an awesome 2019 for all of us.😘

Quote from: Feeltrapped on December 31, 2018, 09:49:17 PM
Love your fluttershy avatar!!  Right now I'm working up the courage to come out to my wife... she's up stairs with the kids and will be down any minute. Excited yet scared... kinda wish in a way I had the place to myself tonight, at least for a while to listen to some (will sound nerdy....) two steps from hell epic playlists on YouTube to really work up my courage... for some reason that stuff makes me feel bullet proof lol

Sorry to take so long to reply.  I haven't figured out how to get notification without the pop up.  I have not come out to any friends or family yet, so having a notification pop from the background while someone is talking to me at my computer would put me in a very precarious position.  I think my kid's mother is actually from Hell, so I can only expect her to blow a gasket, especially if she did so from snooping. 

Have the courage and conviction to do what it right for you.  Hard to be a good husband, father or friend when you are living a good portion of your soul locked up in secret.  It really wears thin on your resolve to enjoy life.  From the stories told by the other girls from realizing they were OK but not whole, accepting they were transgender, taking the giant leap of Faith to be who they really are and coming out to friends and family, it is an extremely good chance that it will turn out alright.  Not saying that there won't be some hiccups.  What is life without hiccups.  If anything, it keeps it from being boring.   

Quote from: KimOct on December 31, 2018, 09:54:09 PM
Home alone too - with some Riesling.  At my age I have had a lot of blow out NYEs some terrible ones and some meh.
Sometimes meh isn't a bad thing     Watching rented movies - not my best NYE but definitely not the worst.

You have your health, your looks and a bottle of Riesling (my favs).  What could be better than that?  OK, if Alaskan Danielle was taking out her world famous snickerdoodles and molasses cookies from the oven...now that would be a slice of Heaven.  Who needs the crowds, noise, booze sloshing all over the place, the inevitable jerks, smoke and the heavily lightened wallet?  Not me, says I.  Enjoy you movie and a clink of the wine glass to you, this fine New Year's Eve!

Quote from: luckygirl on December 31, 2018, 10:02:34 PM
My father would go our and drink any night of the week but this one. He called it, Amateur night. Honestly, consider yourself one of the smart, safe and lucky ones if you're safe at home this evening. Happy New Years, guys  Here's to an awesome 2019 for all of us.😘

Ya, I have never been much of a New Year's Eve socializer.    Back when I was young and dumb, chasing skirts.  Now I am older, smarter and wearing skirts.    Warm regards and a beautiful New Year of 2019 awaits us all!

Two movies and a half bottle of Riesling done - listening to Christina Aguilera - Beautiful on you tube while typing - highly recommended video for us trans folk. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAfyFTzZDMM&start_radio=1&list=RDeAfyFTzZDMM

Quote from: KimOct on January 01, 2019, 12:58:37 AM
The first transphobe you have to conquer is yourself

This is so true, though I always had a fascination for MTFs  I just never had the fortune to ever meet one...till now.  Hello self!  ha ha

Hope the night went well and the dawn of a New Year titillating with potential. 

Quote from: KimOct on January 01, 2019, 12:58:37 AM
Two movies and a half bottle of Riesling done - listening to Christina Aguilera - Beautiful on you tube while typing - highly recommended video for us trans folk. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAfyFTzZDMM&start_radio=1&list=RDeAfyFTzZDMM

That was nice!  It is true, we are all beautiful in our own ways!  As long as we believe in ourselves, nothing can bring us down!

I spent New Years Eve fully made up, in bra and heels and a two hour electric breast pump session.

I am really sore, but Wow! boob-wise.

   

Quote from: valerie anne on January 02, 2019, 02:14:19 PM
and a two hour electric breast pump session.

I am really sore, but Wow! boob-wise.

Is that a common thing on new years eve?  What do you plan to achieve with it?

I am back on the breast pumps tonite! It's so addictive, being ryhmically sucked, whilst feeling helpless and a slave to the pump.

It has increased me from an A to a C cup, and I have got massive nipples too.

Quote from: valerie anne on January 02, 2019, 04:32:39 PM
I am back on the breast pumps tonite! It's so addictive, being ryhmically sucked, whilst feeling helpless and a slave to the pump.

It has increased me from an A to a C cup, and I have got massive nipples too.

What kind of pump is it?  One that would extract breast milk from lactating mothers?

Quote from: valerie anne on January 02, 2019, 04:32:39 PM
I am back on the breast pumps tonite! It's so addictive, being ryhmically sucked, whilst feeling helpless and a slave to the pump.

It has increased me from an A to a C cup, and I have got massive nipples too.

Quote from: Dietlind on January 02, 2019, 04:43:17 PM
What kind of pump is it?  One that would extract breast milk from lactating mothers?

Yes, do tell!  I am using a little, gentle hand pump to start with.  I read that you can go to far and cause some damage.  One of my goals is to be able to lactate so that I can adopt an infant.   There is an online UK company that sells pumps for just increasing nipple and breast size that I am looking at.  The milkers are good just for the nipples, and when the endo sets up the false pregnancy via hormones, the stimulation to lactate.

Quote from: BritneyX on January 02, 2019, 06:37:13 PM
Yes, do tell!  I am using a little, gentle hand pump to start with.  I read that you can go to far and cause some damage.  One of my goals is to be able to lactate so that I can adopt an infant.   There is an online UK company that sells pumps for just increasing nipple and breast size that I am looking at.  The milkers are good just for the nipples, and when the endo sets up the false pregnancy via hormones, the stimulation to lactate.

The danger with pumping is that one could overstretch the skin, and tissue separation could take place.  A boob with that would not be a very pleasant sight.

Quote from: Dietlind on January 02, 2019, 08:56:53 PM
The danger with pumping is that one could overstretch the skin, and tissue separation could take place.  A boob with that would not be a very pleasant sight.

I would not want that.  I already have a nasty L shaped scar next to my left areola from a mass (unknown) from when I was in the Navy.  I had post-Hurricane Katrina MRSA on my face that did a real number on me.  Not to get too graphic but there should have been a huge, fugly scar on my chin where is spread from.  I heal fairly quickly.  The Doc that took care of my male breast issue was a freaking moron and put just a single heavy stitch on this gaping hole they left.   I pray that when my breasts start coming in, it won't look like a botched boob job from Mexico. It is one reason why I am allowing my self to get a bit pudgy.  If it is bad, there will be plenty of skin to have a plastic surgeon clean up....I hope. 

Quote from: BritneyX on January 02, 2019, 09:40:08 PM
I would not want that.  I already have a nasty L shaped scar next to my left areola from a mass (unknown) from when I was in the Navy.  I had post-Hurricane Katrina MRSA on my face that did a real number on me.  Not to get too graphic but there should have been a huge, fugly scar on my chin where is spread from.  I heal fairly quickly.  The Doc that took care of my male breast issue was a freaking moron and put just a single heavy stitch on this gaping hole they left.   I pray that when my breasts start coming in, it won't look like a botched boob job from Mexico. It is one reason why I am allowing my self to get a bit pudgy.  If it is bad, there will be plenty of skin to have a plastic surgeon clean up....I hope.

Scar tissue will not stretch very well, you can try to break it down to a large extend by doing scar massage, you can even break down tissue in old scars pretty well.  But the cut itself will not stretch well.  Your case might be one in which some gentle pumping could help to stretch the scar tissue enough o allow for breast growth.
I would not try to achieve that via weight gain, because if you ever want to have any surgery for feminizing your body more, you want to be as lean as possible for this.  Fatty tissue will not heal well and can be source for unwanted wound infections.

Quote from: Dietlind on January 02, 2019, 11:02:55 PM
Scar tissue will not stretch very well, you can try to break it down to a large extend by doing scar massage, you can even break down tissue in old scars pretty well.  But the cut itself will not stretch well.  Your case might be one in which some gentle pumping could help to stretch the scar tissue enough o allow for breast growth.
I would not try to achieve that via weight gain, because if you ever want to have any surgery for feminizing your body more, you want to be as lean as possible for this.  Fatty tissue will not heal well and can be source for unwanted wound infections.

What I meant, and I should have been more clear, is that the thought was to have my skin stretched enough for like a tummy tuck sort of thing, to cut out that section of scarred skin.  My nipples already are pointing East/West than North.  BA of not, I think I might have to have the compass on the girls true'd up a bit, if ya know what I mean   Two fists of space in my future cleavage does not sound very appealing to me, though I ain't critical of those that are formed out that way.  The only issue is the scar is to the outside of the areola, not the inside.

Quote from: BritneyX on January 02, 2019, 11:34:59 PM
What I meant, and I should have been more clear, is that the thought was to have my skin stretched enough for like a tummy tuck sort of thing, to cut out that section of scarred skin.  My nipples already are pointing East/West than North.  BA of not, I think I might have to have the compass on the girls true'd up a bit, if ya know what I mean   Two fists of space in my future cleavage does not sound very appealing to me, though I ain't critical of those that are formed out that way.  The only issue is the scar is to the outside of the areola, not the inside.

I don't know ho much breast growth you have already, but once hose girls fill in, the nipples get pushed more to the center.  I had the same problem as you have, and i corrected itself over time.
The size of your cleavage is determined by your chest size (bandwidth for bras), and the size of your breasts.  I have a rather large bandwidth of 40" ,and even with OK size breast, I have to have a lot of fantasy to detect something that could be considered as cleavage .  It will get better once my boobs grow little more, but I never will be mistaken for the twin of Dolly Parton!

I would not jeopardize any future feminizing procedures by gaining weight.  If surgeons need skin for grafts, they find it all over your body!