Lacy beat me to it. I've always believed one persons normal is another persons weird. Yeah duck out of water like others my whole life. So what, becoming more normal everyday.

I don't know, I was never allowed to forget how weird I was when I was a child. Trying to be a boy I thought was pretty weird.

This seems pretty normal now even though I am sure that I am still considered weird by many. I am happy now at least.

I've never had the "normal" option.

Growing my hair out seems to help me blend in better.

Quote from: RealLacy on January 21, 2019, 03:32:48 PM
There are so many great thoughts and responses to this thread!

I never felt normal before. I always wondered why I felt weird and had to fake everything that my friends seemed to just know.

Since the first time I fully accepted myself I have felt extremely normal! My normal. Screw what society thinks is  normal...they don't know me!

One person's normal is another person's weird!

Lacy

That was me exactly to a t... I constantly felt awkward, like I was reading of a script and nothing would sound right! It was terrible... And at 27 years old it was getting worse [emoji31]
Now, I think it's weird when guys show interest in me and I remember my transness. Or when people clock me and in my mind I think, well I'm not a genetic girl and they know.  I mostly feel weird like people will think I'm fake... But people don't know me and I'm sure those same people judged me before too and always will. Some people just don't like me! Lol I'm learning to live with it [emoji6]

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I am sitting in a restaurant having finished dinner. I'm wearing flats, opaque black stockings, b&w flower patterned capris, a white long sleeves bodysuit, 36B bra, and an asymmetrical grey sweater.

There is a little WTF going on in my head, thinking this is different, maybe weird, but happy and calm with myself. I love being out in public as i want to be. I even used the women's washroom tonight for the first time (okay, that was intimidating and weird).

Just be natural, I am telling myself.

Hugs Zoey xoxo

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I came out to my sisters last week and it feels wierd that happened and the fact that they support me. One of my sisters wants me to transition. It may be even more wierd once I hrt.

Quote from: Zoey421 on January 21, 2019, 09:15:00 PM
I even used the women's washroom tonight for the first time (okay, that was intimidating and weird).

Just be natural, I am telling myself.

Hugs Zoey xoxo

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This will still be weird for a few more times, but you get used to it more and more.  In a few weeks you will even be chating with the other ladies inside waiting for a free stall or redoing their makeup.
Remeber, you are a women!

Besides absolutely all the time?

I feel like after the very last bounce I took on a trampoline, someone switched off the earth's gravity, and now I'm flying through space.

I always knew I was from outer space. When I was 5, I wanted to be an astronaut.

Transitioning is weird for me because I didn't know or UNDERSTAND that it was possible until I was 32. Then when I finally worked up the guts to watch someone FTM on youtube, I lost my marbles and scheduled my intake at the gender clinic 2 days later. (I read about transitioning for a long time, but couldn't bring myself to actually watch a real person speak while I wrestled with questioning.)

I know it's right, but I don't have any other trans people in my life. I think it freaks out my brain because I don't have any precedents or points of reference.

Life feels really uncertain, but I'm finally getting used to the idea that whatever happens, I will be okay (and also more good than bad is going to happen). Getting all the legal/social transition out of the way has been an immense weight off my shoulders, too.

The weirdest part to me, honestly, is that transitioning is not weird. This is the person that I've been the entire time. I think it's weird how I have been invisible my entire life, stuck in a body that wasn't mine, and no one could see me, recognize me, or properly connect with me because of it. I've been unconsciously grasping at the reflection I couldn't see since I hit puberty in the form of partners, fictional escapism, and posters on my wall.

It makes me think of that moment in the Matrix when Morpheus tells Neo, "This is your residual self-image."

Being the ghost in your own life - it doesn't get any weirder than that. Glad it's coming to an end.

Quote from: VivianB on January 21, 2019, 09:20:23 PM
I came out to my sisters last week and it feels wierd that happened and the fact that they support me. One of my sisters wants me to transition. It may be even more wierd once I hrt.

those are the best sisters. Its like they want more girls in the family or something

I personally think humans were meant to evolve to start using technology to alter our bodies. For some time now we've been putting in all kinds of implants and making artificial prosthesis. So some of us humans use science to alter our gender.

Quote from: jackiefox5585 on January 22, 2019, 03:58:08 AM
I personally think humans were meant to evolve to start using technology to alter our bodies. For some time now we've been putting in all kinds of implants and making artificial prosthesis. So some of us humans use science to alter our gender.

That's true and surgeries have been happening for a long time... While estrogen helps a lot, I always think without it, most of us would rely on suppressing testosterone by getting an orchiectomy. I always wonder if that was the case for transgender people in the past before hrt. It sounds to me like one biological factor can change so much for a person and help them... Now we know that having no sex hormone either testosterone or estrogen leads to osteoporosis and other health complications. And I don't mean they were just done for eunichs, but trans women too...

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Quote from: jackiefox5585 on January 22, 2019, 03:58:08 AM
I personally think humans were meant to evolve to start using technology to alter our bodies. For some time now we've been putting in all kinds of implants and making artificial prosthesis. So some of us humans use science to alter our gender.

I don't agree with this!  If that would be the case, I would not have been able to earn my living!  The human body tries to reject anything that is not part of it's biological system.  In addition, post surgical wound infections would not be one of the larger problems in our hospitals, because the body would reject all human pathogens getting into the wound, if it as meant to be surgically altered!

QuoteNow we know that having no sex hormone either testosterone or estrogen leads to osteoporosis and other health complications.

I've often wondered about that.  Dogs and cats are routinely "fixed".  Do they develop those problems?  I've had many dogs and cats over the years and don't recall that ever being a problem.

I think it is natural for some of us to have some questioning, as what we go through is quite radical.  We might think we are "going against Mother Nature" and perhaps we should not mess with it!

But, if we are honest with ourselves we realize that we need to take positive steps to deal with our gender.  What each of us does, or can do, may differ from what we want to do if there were no real barriers to cope with.  We may give up a lot to get what we want.

But we must make decisions.   We may change our minds, change our schedule, or keep on going.

Does it seem weird at times?  Certainly we are on an unusual trek. 

I wish you all "good travels" on your journey!   

Chrissy

Quote from: RealLacy on January 21, 2019, 03:32:48 PM
There are so many great thoughts and responses to this thread!

I never felt normal before. I always wondered why I felt weird and had to fake everything that my friends seemed to just know.

Since the first time I fully accepted myself I have felt extremely normal! My normal. Screw what society thinks is  normal...they don't know me!

One person's normal is another person's weird!

Lacy

Hello Lacy

I agree with you on both counts.

I think my friends or acquaintances knew there was something weird or wrong in their eyes with me but I suspect they couldn't determine exactly what it was.

Yes since I decided to take positive action on my trans status, I have felt normal and in fact motivated whereas before I could feel I was false.

Hugs

Pamela

Quote from: Beverly Anne on January 21, 2019, 01:20:56 PM
Before coming out was weird. This doesn't feel weird at all. It feels very natural. I'm finally at ease with myself. I can enjoy being who I am.

I had always thought it weird that I wanted to be a girl from the time I knew there was a difference. I thought everyone else would think it's weird also so did my best to keep it hidden.

In reality, what was weird was trying to "man up" to make it go away and expecting that to work after countless attempts.  Finally realized it wasn't going away and figured out that I always wanted to be a girl  because I am one.  So transition is my new normal.

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Doing something about it (i.e. transition) feels weird. But if I think about how I always felt that brought me to do it... that's always been there. If it's weird, it's all I know.

What's really weird is how HRT makes you feel more normal. Then your past starts to feel weird. You future might be weird. You present feels surreal.

After more than 20 years of working in the criminal justice system?

You're joking, right?

I feel that I am no different than any person healing from an ailment. I use technology that is fortunately for me, available, to achieve alignment with my body, and mind. I am living in a time of human advancements where I can make these corrections. I mean, look out to space outside of earth, and what is there? We are unique, and we need to embrace this uniqueness. We need to do anything to achieve happiness within ourselves. Our time on earth, in these bodies are so finite that being content and living within them happily is a necessity. Our bodies will be returned to the earth one day, and so I try my best to find balance and harmony in the one that I have. Everyone has their own priorities.  For some it is making lots of money. For some, their guiding forces are to obtain spiritual enlightenment. For some, it is to help other people find happiness. And some, to conquer and control. My point is that people are diverse, and we as trans folks might have our own unique paths to follow, but they are not out of the norm when considering humankinds diverse existence. Being trans might feel extraordinary, but it really isn't.  I'm stepping down from my soapbox now  This topic just has me thinking. And wouldn't you know that I asked my spouse this very same question yesterday!  She deferred the question back to me...