For over 60 years I hid this weirdness from the world and myself. At times, it gave me such pleasure. But then, after self gratification, the shame and and misunderstanding returned. Many times over those 60 years I considered ending my life! When I was diagnosed with cancer, I was afraid I would never experience the true feminine side of me!! I came out to me wife, went for a make over, and Joanne appeared. Whether in male mode playing with my grandkids, or out shopping with my friends as Joanne, I do not feel weird or ashamed. I am very comfortable with myself!!! My wife is happier too. But that might be from my HRT!
Hugs,
Joanne