anyone have any tips on how you got over this type of rearing? my old man made me go to my first fight.  also had me fight a kid with a,blade when i was 12.  i was an alpha male and its hard to shake a dominant personality were i worry about being weak. 

My parents started raising me like a dog around 7.  I guess they knew something about me was different.  Football, baseball, Scouts, teaching me how to fight, calling me a girl or pussy and etc..

They finally gave up and started spoiling me to make it up I guess..

Maybe try emerssing yourself in everything female.  Movies, music, smell, and anything else possible.  Dance to Madonna videos.  Take ballet classes.  Go for a run.  Or do kick boxing with other women.  You do not have to give up the things you did as a male.

At this point, just go for what makes you authentically happy and feel natural.

While I didn't get forced into the alpha-male like socialization by any means, there were many things that were heretical to a non-queer straight male that I'm slowing allowing myself to indulge in. Easier said than done, it's slowly coming with time