Hello everyone my name is Angel Lee.
I have been confused since I can remember.
As a child, I loved playing with make-up and wearing women clothing.
I still do love to dress up as a woman.
My life has gotten even more complicated as The years roll by.
I feel like I should have been born a woman.
Don't really understand what I'm supposed to do.
Iit is to long to explain my situation.

Hi Angel Lee 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica.
There are many here that share what you have expressed.
Please don't think you have to give any explanations of how you are, that will come in time as you explore.

I see you're new here, so I'll post some links that may help you get better acquainted with the site. Pay attention to the site rules they can be of great help and don't forget the link highlighted red.  It has answers to questions that are commonly asked.  Then join in on a topic you find interesting and learn and share.

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Hi Angel Lee 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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@Angel Lee 
Dear Angel Lee:
     I see that you have just become a member here and have now posted here in the Introductions Forum.

     I also see that our lovely member and California Girl   @Jessica  gave you a warm Welcome to Susan's Place.
    As you post on the forums you will be able to exchange thoughts and comments with others that are experiencing many of the same things that you are.   I expect that you will be getting many members offering their thoughts and suggestions as you continue to post here. 

    This is the right place for you to be to find out what others may have to say that may have been in your circumstances and with your questions and concerns.
    There are a lot of members here that will be able to identify with your situation and as you continue to feel free to share with all of us.

    I also want to warmly WELCOME you to Susan's Place. 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.

    As you are certainly aware you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other like-minded members.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....
     ***There is a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new like-minded friends here. 

    Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace.
   
    Our lovely member Jessica  has attached important and informative LINKS that will help you to navigate around the Forums and will allow you to enjoy the features here.     
Please look closely at the LINKS in RED, answers are there to many questions that new members ask.

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
Danielle

NOTE: Now after all of this Greeting Stuff I will let you have your thread back so you can pursue answers to your questions.
Other members here will certainly be along to give you their comments and suggestions that you may be seeking

Angel - Please don't hesitate to tell us more about what you are feeling - that is why we are all here.  I can only speak for myself on this but for me you didn't even scratch the surface.  Sometimes I read an introduction that goes on and on and on and on .... you get the idea - I eventually lose interest.  But tell us more about what you are feeling and maybe we can be helpful or supportive.
Welcome 

Thank you for the warm welcome !
I feel like I am 2 very different people inside.
I just don't know how to explain it.
I am not attracted to men,and I love my wife very much. I don't know why I feel like a woman sometimes and sometimes like a man. I do love dressing up as a woman. I love everything about it. I feel like I should have been born a woman. I have to go for now but will return.....Love to All 💋

Quote from: Angel Lee on February 21, 2019, 07:34:50 AM
Thank you for the warm welcome !
I feel like I am 2 very different people inside.
I just don't know how to explain it.
I am not attracted to men,and I love my wife very much. I don't know why I feel like a woman sometimes and sometimes like a man. I do love dressing up as a woman. I love everything about it. I feel like I should have been born a woman. I have to go for now but will return.....Love to All 💋

Girl, I know exactly how you feel!! When I wake up in the morning I never know whether it will be a "boy day" or a "girl day" until I've woken up and become oriented. It's a 50/50 guess most of the time. Some days I absolutely need to dress and other days, I'm fine in guy clothes.

And it doesn't help that I'm bi - and I go day to day back and forth between an attraction to women and an attraction to men.

Hardest part for me is the secrecy. I hate it. I wanna be me, but God there are a lot of obstacles

Gender dysphoria is tough and I've learned each person is sooooo unique. But I take comfort knowing there are so many other people who share our feelings.

Welcome.

Girl you are so right about it being tough.!
And the secresy is the hardest part of it all..
I just wanna be be too and can't. Thanks for taking the time to reply to me.

Hello and Welcome Angel & Lexi!

There's nothing wrong with being lost and confused as long as you're willing to be completely honest with yourself and can learn to fully accept yourself for who you are.  If you can do this, a path forward to a happier place will become clearer and clearer.

I believe that one of the biggest obstacles to overcome for anyone who is questioning their gender identity and/or sexual orientation is learning to be able to separate how you truly feel and what you truly want from all of the external social influences that might suggest what you should feel and what you should want.  Because we're so socially oriented, it's very easy for many people to "internalize" external influences so deeply that we can sometimes trick ourselves into thinking these influences are our own feelings and wants when in fact they aren't.

There are a lot of different ways that those who are questioning can sort out who you really are vs. who you believe you should be.  Therapy with someone who specializes in LGBTQ+ issues can often be one of the best ways to do this, only because gender identity and sexual orientation are incredibly complex, and certainly not because you're in any way "abnormal" if you happen to be anything other than cisgendered and heterosexual.  In fact, the more you learn about gender identity and sexual orientation, the more you will quickly realize how bizarre the fantasy of "normal" is. 

Susan's Place and local LGBTQ+ networks and groups in your communities can definitely be fantastic resources for you as well.

Wishing you both the Joy of Discovery!

   

~EV~

Quote from: KimOct on February 11, 2019, 07:38:37 PM
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Sometimes I read an introduction that goes on and on and on and on .... you get the idea - I eventually lose interest.
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Hey, I resemble that remark!        

Quote from: Angel Lee on February 23, 2019, 12:08:48 PM
Girl you are so right about it being tough.!
And the secresy is the hardest part of it all..
I just wanna be be too and can't. Thanks for taking the time to reply to me.

Angel, if I may ask, what's holding you back? Personally, I'm married and my parents flipped out when my cousin came out as trans. There are a lot of people who would be affected by my gender dysphoria if I come out. Right now it's just my cross to bear. And, being a soldier, cop, firefighter, husband, father and a son, I've always tried to carry the burden so others didn't have to.

Also curious- how old are you? If I've learned anything in my experiences, it seems like the earlier you come to understand yourself and make changes, the easier the transition is.

I also have that big cross to carry with me. I'm  a son,a husband, a father of many,a grandfather, a great grandfather and a superintendent for a large company. When my wife and I  met in the early 90's
Behind closed doors I dressed up as a woman and we had fun together. She told me that she would never try to  change me and she was ok with it. Everything was great, three years later we got married. Later we moved to  where hef family lived. Then things started to change, she didn't like me dressing up as a woman anymore. I go to the garage and dress up occasionally now by myself. We hardly have sex anymore, but we are still a married couple and I love her.I have worked hard all my life and my house is paid for and I'm doing a remodeling job on it little at a time.now with  all that being said,I could loose my family, my friends, my job and my house  if I were to come out.and I am 51.

Quote from: Angel Lee on February 25, 2019, 06:52:19 AM
now with  all that being said,I could loose my family, my friends, my job and my house  if I were to come out.and I am 51.

Well, you would be like many of us.  I was 59 when my world exploded!  I lost my house, I lost my wife of 36 years.  Luckily, I was able to keep my job, and our son stuck with me.  But my entire world collapsed.
However, I am a woman now, and my ex wife and I are girlfriends now.
We have to deal with the deck of cards e got, and have to try to make the best out of it!

I wish you a lot of luck!

Quote from: Dietlind on February 25, 2019, 10:25:21 AM
  I was 59 when my world exploded! 

Damnnnn girl! Your avatar makes you look 35. You look GREAT!!!

Quote from: Lexi B on February 25, 2019, 02:30:42 PM
Damnnnn girl! Your avatar makes you look 35. You look GREAT!!!

Thank you!  Professional makeup can do a lot for ones looks!
But I am lucky that my intersex condition prevented me from getting adult skin.  I still have the same baby type skin I was born with.  Even without makeup, I am estimated to be 20 to 25 years younger than my biological age is.
I hated this when I was younger, because I still got carded when I was in my late 40's.  Now, being an older woman, I love it!

Quote from: Entropic Variable on February 23, 2019, 01:14:44 PM
Hello and Welcome Angel & Lexi!

There's nothing wrong with being lost and confused as long as you're willing to be completely honest with yourself and can learn to fully accept yourself for who you are.  If you can do this, a path forward to a happier place will become clearer and clearer.



Susan's Place and local LGBTQ+ networks and groups in your communities can definitely be fantastic resources for you as well.

Wishing you both the Joy of Discovery!

   

~EV~



Hey, I resemble that remark!        

HAHAHA    Yeah you do but I love your posts - very insightful and always keep my interest.  btw I love that line - I resemble that remark.  I use it all the time but nobody seems to pick up on it. 

And your quote on top is spot on.  Acknowledging it and striving for those answers is what this is about.