Hi,

My wife and I proposed names, feminine names for me.  She seemed set on Lauren, and I recalled she had once said she wished she had been given that name.  Other names spoke to me, but the thought of having a name my wife loved was so nice.
I'm still young enough to dream and play with my world.
I'm MTF in spirit, but delaying ... maybe enjoying to the fullest, each micro stage in my softening.
I'm not on HRT, but I couldn't stop myself from meeting with gender therapists to talk it out.  One offered a letter, but the enormity of it scared me.
I'm finally open with my wife, and she just loves me more.  The impossibility I felt of getting to this Has been shattered.
Now I'm Lauren and dress often at home, as well as a little carefully outside.
I'm still confused about how to soften myself more, while staying stealth outside our home.  I'm not sure if I was ever really in control of my feminization steps/delays.  The pressure just grows till I progress or go crazy.  I'm afraid of rejection when this comes out, and I hope the community here can help me hold on, while softening further.


Lauren

@Finding Lauren
Dear Lauren:
Thank you for following the LINK that I provided to you when I Officially Welcomed you 2 days ago on another thread to come here to the Introductions Forum to tell more members about yourself.

Please be certain to look over the important and informative LINKS that I provided to you in my Welcome Message on the first thread that you posted on.... they will help you to navigate around the Forums and better use the features here.

Now that you have posted again and introduced yourself here, your profile is being seen by many more in the forums and you will be able to share your thoughts and questions with other like-minded members.

Thank you for telling us more about yourself.  Please enjoy your involvement here on the Susan's Place Forums.

Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle

Hi Lauren 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Quote from: Finding Lauren on February 27, 2019, 01:31:46 PM
Hi,

My wife and I proposed names, feminine names for me.  She seemed set on Lauren, and I recalled she had once said she wished she had been given that name.  Other names spoke to me, but the thought of having a name my wife loved was so nice.
I'm still young enough to dream and play with my world.
I'm MTF in spirit, but delaying ... maybe enjoying to the fullest, each micro stage in my softening.
I'm not on HRT, but I couldn't stop myself from meeting with gender therapists to talk it out.  One offered a letter, but the enormity of it scared me.
I'm finally open with my wife, and she just loves me more.  The impossibility I felt of getting to this Has been shattered.
Now I'm Lauren and dress often at home, as well as a little carefully outside.
I'm still confused about how to soften myself more, while staying stealth outside our home.  I'm not sure if I was ever really in control of my feminization steps/delays.  The pressure just grows till I progress or go crazy.  I'm afraid of rejection when this comes out, and I hope the community here can help me hold on, while softening further.


Lauren

Hi Lauren and welcome!

I'm so happy for you that your wife accepts you! It is so wonderful to have your true love have your back.

I too am towards the beginning of transition (on HRT one month), and all the hopes and fears you discussed ring true with me. I do hope you will consider continuing therapy as part of your transition and not just to get a letter for HRT. Even with your wife's support, talking to an experienced gender therapist on an ongoing basis can be extremely beneficial and can help guide you through all the key steps in transition, but especially the always-challenging coming-out process. My therapist has been very valuable to my transition so far.

I look forward to hearing the next steps on your journey.

Sarah

Lauren Having an accepting wife is HUGE, that is one of the toughest things for many people in this journey.  Yes you will need courage to deal with the rest of the world but you will eventually find that it will be better than you fear.

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