Hi,
I'm not great about writing about myself, but I'll give it my best shot.
As long as I can remember (roughly 10th grade circa 2000) I've felt off. I wasn't sure what it was, but I knew something wasn't right. I just assumed that everybody felt that way, and living a more "normal" life is what people did because it was just what people did. I've never known how people can be happy since I've been living kind of on cruise-control, just letting the time pass and waiting to see if anything would happen to make me feel better.
Since I just repressed everything over the years, it kind of built up more and more until I was to the point where I welcomed death, even asked for it every night before going to bed. At that point, I decided to find and see a therapist. She helped me figure out the root cause, and it's changed and complicated things a bit.
My legal name is Jeremiah (I just use Jay from day to day though). After seeing my therapist, I spent about 5 months thinking about it and decided I'd rather be Cassandra Grace (there is a method behind my madness for that choice). Most of the friends that know and prefer to use that name just call me Cassie.
I'm still doing research on transitioning. I know I want to, but I'm just concerned about my career since I've put too much time into it to start over. I'm the kind of person that requires too much information before deciding on anything, which makes life slightly more difficult!
I've since outed myself to just over 30 people that I know, and most of them have been super supportive. There's still a lot of people that don't know what I'm going through, but I figure whatever happens just kind of happens.
If you want to know anything, feel free to ask. I'm an open book!
