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Emma1017 · March 17, 2019, 01:12:39 PM

Sorry Gina, a very Happy St. Patrick's Day to you and everyone else.

GinaG · March 17, 2019, 01:38:01 PM

The schools were tough back then. I was at St John's Prep. We weren't too mean.
We left the year after 9/11. What a time.

Emma1017 · March 17, 2019, 01:53:25 PM

If you get a chance watch Heaven Help Us, a 1985 movie about growing up Catholic in Brooklyn. It was shot near my house. It nails the experience.

KimOct · March 17, 2019, 09:58:46 PM

I missed the fun today. Still dealing poker one day a week. Sundays.

Emma - that timeline was amazing. Thanks for sharing that. Most of us lived something pretty similar but it was very well done and I got a little sappy.

Very well written.

I guess we are sisters in a way. Sisters support each other - that's what we do. I wish we had lived it but maybe we can have a tiny taste of it by goofing around.

Just so you both know I am the favorite.

Emma1017 · March 18, 2019, 12:31:52 AM

I just can't stop crying. Why? I really hurt. Why, it makes no sense. It just came out of nowhere. I really hate this. I just can't stop. Sorry this came out of no where. Damn hormones

Faith · March 18, 2019, 06:14:32 AM

Quote from: Emma1017 on March 18, 2019, 12:31:52 AM
I just can't stop crying. Why? I really hurt. Why, it makes no sense. It just came out of nowhere. I really hate this. I just can't stop. Sorry this came out of of where. Damn hormones

oh, this, yeah. When this happens to me my wife (and my gal friends as well) just look at me and say, "Welcome to being a woman"

So, no sympathy there

TonyaW · March 18, 2019, 08:08:19 AM

Quote from: Emma1017 on March 18, 2019, 12:31:52 AM
I just can't stop crying. Why? I really hurt. Why, it makes no sense. It just came out of nowhere. I really hate this. I just can't stop. Sorry this came out of of where. Damn hormones

I actually liked when that happened to me.
Hormones more stable after 2 years so I don't get that as often anymore.

Combination of testosterone and social pressure to "man-up" never let that happen before. It's like Captain Barbosa in Pirates of the Caribbean when he got shot.

"I feel".

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Emma1017 · March 18, 2019, 08:19:54 AM

I got up this morning and read your post Faith and just laughed out loud. Tonya you followed up and nailed it.

You both are right which means I finally made it to female with HRT in my fourth month. Yay!

I still present very male physically. The mirror isn't the true reflection. I keep forgetting that the HRT isn't waiting for the surgeries, I am very much transitioning inside right now.

Wow I am such an amateur!

Hugs,

Emma

Paige · March 18, 2019, 02:25:19 PM

Quote from: Emma1017 on March 18, 2019, 08:19:54 AM
Wow I am such an amateur!

Don't worry Emma, there's lots of us amateurs around although I would enjoy being paid to transition.

Emma1017 · March 18, 2019, 05:17:52 PM

Paige we are all professional transgender "athletes". Who else would or could put up with this pain, both emotional and physical?

KimOct · March 18, 2019, 06:36:44 PM

Emma I will send you your official membership card.

Welcome to the club !!

Edit - Just wait until your T is gone - Oh My

HappyMoni · March 18, 2019, 07:12:28 PM

Am I too late to sign up for the Olympic Sobbing events? My main event is the 40 yard tear jerker. Or was that a snatch and jerk? Oh I don't know, I'm so confused!

Emma1017 · March 18, 2019, 07:22:55 PM

I figure we are the Navy Seals of gender. I have gay friends who think they have it tough...

We kick butt! We need a motto!

KatieP · March 18, 2019, 08:03:44 PM

Quote from: Emma1017 on March 18, 2019, 07:22:55 PM
I figure we are the Navy Seals of gender. I have gay friends who think they have it tough...

We kick butt! We need a motto!

"Transgender. The only easy day was yesterday!"

(OK. Not so original. But totally applicable...)

Kate

Emma1017 · March 18, 2019, 08:26:12 PM

I don't know Kate, I like the theme.

I like the very crude "It takes balls to become a woman".

GinaG · March 18, 2019, 08:31:18 PM

To get classical:

Superbus et non confundamur"

unashamed and proud.

Hugs

Emma1017 · March 19, 2019, 06:29:54 AM

Gina that one is great. Mine was very base (but it made me laugh) but your's shows a lot more class.

Emma1017 · March 19, 2019, 06:48:05 AM

I was thinking this morning about how powerful the drive to present female and to pass is in all of us. I am on my 4th month of HRT and I am absolutely feeling totally female internally and yet it isn't enough.

I wasn't joking when I said earlier that we are the Navy Seals of gender. No one is willing to go through such extraordinary personal and physical pain to be the gender they need to be.

I am glad I am no longer ashamed that I am transgender.

GinaG · March 19, 2019, 07:50:12 AM

I keep that thought before me. Unshamed. Your right it takes real courage and sacifice to undertake this journey.

Emma1017 · March 19, 2019, 09:34:42 AM

I learned my courage from every person who responded to my fears from the start of this thread. I continue to be amazed by this remarkable community.

It constantly humbles me.

Massive hugs,

Emma

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