Hi,  Gina here. 
new to this forum.  I am approaching 60.  Live in the southern California desert.  Successful in my career and in the midst of my retirement.   

I have endured a life of confusion, therapy, 2 marriages, 2 kids, ridicule and a lot more.  I endure because despite being transgender MTF, i have not transitioned to live as a woman I know I am and thus struggle to express my true self and continue to hide among my life people and society.

I am an outdoors adventurous person. 
I camp, hike, climb, jeep, ski, etc whenever I can.
One of my desires is to find fellow trans partners to do these things.
My regular cloud of outdoor folks, I would not consider opening to.  Too much history there to struggle through.

I am envious..
Every time I see a woman living her life, with her feminine shape, makeup, pretty clothes, I just want to be them.

Its not easy...
living this way.  I have my cave to nourish my feminine soul.  I have my loving wife who is the only one that cherishes and aids my feminine ways.  But that is not enough.  She does not want me to be out and be with her.  Its complex, that love thing.

I'm on HRT..
I started by taking finesteride to help with hair loss.
I'm now 2 years on Spiro and progynova at a fairly low level.
HRT has caused some mind and body changes, small boobs, soft skin, less body hair, less muscles.
This low level seems to keep me on the edge between man<>woman.
But keeps my mind healthy.  Wish I did this a while ago.
I don't expect much "transformation" being 60, but always dream of a lot more.
I read about all the transition things all the time. 

I want to socialize more..
I would love to be in a social group of trans accepting people.
I know they are all over and have experimented and found some, but did not find a lot of benefit for me.
Trans folks are for the most part, very friendly and accommodating, but most I have met are self-centered with transition (I do not blame them).  I guess I need to try harder.

Well, that's enough of the intro thing. 
Nice to meet all of you.
And looking forward to contributing in some small way.

hugs, gina

Hi Gina 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica.
It's so nice to meet you!  I'm a California girl in the SF area.

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Welcome Gina and nice to meet you, many outdoor enthusiasts and like minds to be found on Susan's Place.

I am familiar with many of the recreation areas of So Cal, long time ago in a previous life, I used to ride desert 2 strokes out there, had a RM 370, it was a screaming machine. Also skied a bit at Wrightwood and Big Bear areas. I am in WA now but grew up down there, like Jessica I am CA girl....

Many folks posting pictures in the hiking threads, feel free to join in with us over there...

here is but one thread that's active

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,245196.0.html

Hugs

Cynthia -

Hi Gina 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Welcome Gina.

Tony