Quote from: KimOct on April 02, 2019, 07:20:22 PM
I think mine has shifted somewhat but not done a dramatic 180.
I discovered that my dial has another hand!
The hand my dial had before HRT stayed where it was and then, POP, there's another! It's kinda pointing the opposite direction!

I'm still physically and emotionally attracted to women, but, contrary to the answer I always came up with to the question I'd been asking myself all my life, I COULD be attracted to a man, but only after beginning HRT. I used to ask myself and ask myself if I even
could be attracted to a man and that answer was always "no". I don't think it was internalized homophobia, I just genuinely did not see anything attractive about them, their bodies nor their minds.
Then it hit. My best friend of a couple of decades was one of the first people I came out to. He told me he fully supported me
if I didn't hit on him I'm like, yeah, no problem! I'm attracted to women only! That didn't last long. Along comes HRT and I start fantasizing about him. I realize that maybe there was a reason we'd been best friends for so long. Then I did start hitting on him at parties when I'd lost my inhibitions. Then came the inevitable end of our friendship.
Damned second puberty!
I've come to realize that I am now semi-demi-pan. I
can be aroused by a body, but in the end, I only want to be in a relationship with someone whose mind is compatible with my own. I was madly in love with my ex-wife and I still love her, and I was madly in love with my soon-to-be ex-husband, and I will always love him, as well.
But physically, I am still more attracted to women and I miss being intimate with a woman. Still, once I have GRS...I can
certainly see the benefit of being intimate with a man!

While I have this one remaining part, I have no desire to use it in any way and could happily exist pleasing my partner, only. I need no physical pleasure to get intense romantic pleasure from my partner. The thought of anal is not appealing to me, whatsoever, possibly from a dysphoria standpoint, but mostly because it's more like the back of a Volkswagon (Mallrats reference).
This is a very interesting subject for me and I'm sorry if I went long (again).