was it only yesterday? feels much longer. 2 days of funk is plenty.
Therapist said, "You're reading too much into it. Did you talk to Lori?" ... yeah, nope
Talked to Lori, "No, I didn't feel that at all"
Why did I feel like crap? Why do I feel like crap? I cannot stand that thought that she looks at me and misses him, I know that she does. *sigh*
As an aside from the funk .. Today was my first day at a public pool. Yes, I wore my swim suit, no it was not a bikini. Lori forbade me from wearing trunk, something about getting arrested

Well, I had not considered it for a moment.
The closer we got to the pool, the higher my anxiety got. As I walked to the pool, I had my hands full and clutching a towel around me. I went straight to a table and sat there for 30 mins getting hotter and hotter staring at the pool. Finally I got the nerve to walk to the pool and get in .. where my outfit immediately floated up. Excuse me, I wore a skirt type for a reason. I need weights in the hem!!
As we left the gentleman at the counter wished us both a happy mother's day. Apparently we looked like child, mom, and grandMom. CRAP!! I still look old. Why can't I lose 20 years on estrogen??? Fine, take the good, I was gendered correctly :-/