What is being transgender like for you?

Being transgender is like looking both ways before you cross the street and bamm! You're hit by an airplane.

It's been the most fascinating learning experience of my life, and the most liberating thing I've ever done. 

@MelissaAnn 
Obviously I know what I used to be and I know what I am now.   As a full-time woman for several years now, and being accepted by virtually everyone in my town including my business clients I am getting along well. 

As a woman I dress and undress, shower and do my hair and makeup.... all of this is second nature, all of my clothes and shoes are women's styles, all of my documents have my proper name and gender.
I go to work, go play, go home, go to bed, wake up ...it is what a woman does...I actually do not give very much serious thought about being transgender very often any longer.   

There are times however that the thought does cross my mind, particularly when I spend time on Susan's Place and the Forums exchanging happy and friendly comments and posts with my Forum's friends.....   HMMMM.

Hugs,
Danielle

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on May 16, 2019, 01:25:47 PM
@MelissaAnn 
Obviously I know what I used to be and I know what I am now.   As a full-time woman for several years now, and being accepted by virtually everyone in my town including my business clients I am getting along well. 

As a woman I dress and undress, shower and do my hair and makeup.... all of this is second nature, all of my clothes and shoes are women's styles, all of my documents have my proper name and gender.
I go to work, go play, go home, go to bed, wake up ...it is what a woman does...I actually do not give very much serious thought about being transgender very often any longer.   

There are times however that the thought does cross my mind, particularly when I spend time on Susan's Place and the Forums exchanging happy and friendly comments and posts with my Forum's friends.....   HMMMM.

Hugs,
Danielle

Danielle
I'm the same way. I have been fulltime now going on 5 years. I work two different jobs and am fully accepted.  I am blessed to have cis female passing privileges. It's only my closest friends that know. In the beginning things were very hard but know I like starting conversations to help others. Bless you my friend.

Melissa

It's bouts of chaos and uncertainty swirling around small periods of clarity and peace.  It being hated and shunned for who I am... It is about hiding much from almost all....it's about feeling alone, helpless, and desperate.  It's about being forced to live or act in an ungenuine manner.   It's about loving myself.  It's about discovering who that self is.  It's about social struggles.  It's about family struggles.  It's about professional struggles and it's about legal struggles.  Oh, and economic struggles to cap those other things off....it's about consequences and difficult choices.  It's about pain and freedom. 

In the end, it's about telling all the world that it can go F itself if it has something to say.....

For me, being transgender is about the joy of finally figuring out who I am and what was going on for all those years.  In fact, it is about finding joy, because I had never experienced it before. 

Now I feel joy every day.  Joy at getting to be my self, joy at being accepted, and joy at discovering the basic decency of most people.

Before I came out of the closet and started transition it was like that Star Trek episode where they beam Kirk up from the planet but he never materializes back on the Enterprise. And Scotty and Spock are scratching their heads trying to figure out how to get him back.

Caught between 2 worlds and never able to live ones life.

Being trans?

Like running from the real you, boxing her into a little cell for decades yet knowing she is you and the facade you built is all lies and could crumble easily. Knowing that something is different and finally having the courage to break free from the shackles of expectations. Finally losing a lot, experiencing a lot of pain but at the end feeling like your mind and body are one and that all the running was a really silly idea.

Being trans is a journey to finding yourself. Some are lucky and embrace it early. Others, later. Still, we are born the way we are, we are not ill, we are not crazy, and we are all worthy of love.

Hello Everyone

I am sure there will be so many different replies but many will share common themes and/or traits.

Being transgender for me has been:

Wishing from my earliest conscious thoughts to be a girl and telling my grandmother aged 4.
Later in childhood praying to God to make me a girl.
Not fitting in at boys' school.
Dreading puberty and (as its impossible to have female puberty) to remain a child.
Envy of female puberty.
Hating puberty on its arrival and for its duration.
Starting crossdressing and bodyshaving and continuing it for decades.
Never living as such but just existing.
Aware that I am acting all the time.
Being depressed - either the mild form of being "dulled" or the more severe form of feeling "hurt" with pains sometimes in the stomach and sometimes in the throat.
Looking at the female form and being envious of the breasts and the curves. Admiring the make up and wishing I could apply it outside my house.
Hiding all the time and wondering who may have realized the way I am. If a small number have worked it out, what is their opinion?
Is my being mainly asexual and transgender connected or is it coincidental? Even now, I don't know!
Taking early retirement and the GD becomes so dominant and doesn't go away. No more suppression this time.
Forced to seek therapy and then HRT and at last am 100% certain I am on the right path.
Decide ultimately to transition in due course.
Have both Laser and Electrolysis.
Buy more female clothing and make up.
Tell a few family members.
Go out in public more often starting with just a walk in the park to travelling and meeting other transwomen.
Gaining confidence and motivation.
Deciding to definitely publicly transition on moving house in Summer this year aged 64.

To sum up, a lifelong desire to be myself and to be liberated. To be female, to live "the other life" and ultimately to be accepted and treated as a woman socially and hopefully also perceived as a woman. I shall try my best to achieve this over the next 20 years and maybe more!

Hugs to all.

Pamela  xx

It still needs much to be desired. In the sense that it does not solve every issue and it's a problem I'd rather never have had to think about.

I suppose it isn't too bad these days.

Being transgender and 50 years old I find I am visiting unfinished buisness from when I was 12 or 13.

I overcame my gender identity issue by force of will and faking it until I made it.

Being a contrived man actually worked to a fair extent but I found my buried self from 1982 rose  again like a zombie in 2015.

I am now discovering alignment and reconcilliation of the whole self.

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Like most things it has its positives and negatives. All up, I rather not be trans as it has cost me a marriage and business, but it has allowed me to live two lives, both male and female. It's the dysphoria which really sucks. That feeling you are not where you should be which invades every part of your life and stops you from enjoying life. But I am trans and there is no way to change that, so I just have to make the best of it. Finding lovely people on this forum has been a definite plus for being trans!

Allie 

I don't even know if I am transgender.  I was born intersex, and was made into a male or something like this.  I have no memory about how I felt, I think I did not have any real gender identification.  I was told I was a guy, so I tried to be a guy.  My body was not fully with it, because it stayed somehow feminin.  I never went fully into puberty, I got something like puberty when I was about 16, but I never developed any secondary male sex characteristics, and I still did not know what I was.  The only thing I knew was that I was emotionally and physically different from my peers, but I don't believe that I thought I was female, I just was there trying to do what was expected of me, but never could achieve some of he stuff, because of the way my body was build.  At some time my body refused to function like a guy was supposed to function (I now know that I went through menopause at that time), and I developed a very big anger and rage, which eventually destroyed my marriage.  I went to anger management counseling, and about at that time I started to feel more and more female.  That was the first time I can remember that I wanted to be a woman, I was about 60 at that time.  Not long after this my body decided to grow breasts (I know now that I started to get going again with puberty), and the rest of my body feminized more and more.  I still did not, and do not, have a clear gender identity, I prefer however to be femle, but I have no dysphoria going out dressed as a man, but my default is now female.
I try to reconstruct my body the way it was supposed to be all the time, and I see it more like reclaiming my body than being transgender, I really don't know, what I should call myself.
According to the laws in Germany, I can't be transgender, because I never was a cis male, but always was a partial woman, and now I just make the decision to live my female part.  There I can have the gender marker X. As an intersex person I simply can declare to be with the marker X, and i also can change my name to either male or female without a court judgement, because i am of the gender X.

Quote from: Allie Jayne on May 18, 2019, 06:39:40 PM
Finding lovely people on this forum has been a definite plus for being trans!

Allie

Allie

Absolutely! I agree entirely. I appreciate your friendship and that of so many others here on this thread and on Susans' as a whole.

Hugs to all

Pamela  xx