Wow a lot of stuff covered in the recent posts.
First I know we are all concerned for Kirsten but she is strong and I believe in her!
Second, I have sworn my whole life that in the last 15 seconds of my life I never wanted to say "I should have...". I have always felt "just do it" but boy did I ignore the biggest "just do it" in my life!!! I am so glad you all helped me see what I couldn't. I said earlier that I now feel like a 14 year old girl. There is excitement in discovery. I am changing physically, mentally and emotionally and it just feels so right!
Third, age. Who cares when you come to understand who you are and who you have a right to be. The important point is that you know, understand and find your own personal peace.
And finally, the "Decision". I started this thread with what would hurt less, transitioning or not. I know now that I can't hold back transitioning and, given the confidence I have in our relationship, I believe that my relationship with my wife can grow with this decision. Our wedding anniversary is this week so I will wait a week but we will have a conversation. I will continue to hope and believe.
Hugs,
Emma