Glad to hear all the tests are good and you are cleared for surgery. I don't know anyone who wouldn't be anxious before surgery. Your dreams are about to come true! Keep us posted about how you are doing as much as you are able. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

  Went fishing with Courtney on Thursday afternoon. Its was so nice to be out with her and clear my mind even if she caught 15 fish to my 5! My deck project is nearing completion and I should be finished closing in the base in a few days. That was the only thing left on my to do list before surgery. I still struggle with the farm and the decision of my mother to will it to my niece. Trying to not dwell on it. As I drive past the house and see them having the time of thier life. No rent, no mortgage, while I struggle with how will I ever pay my mortgage down so I can retire. I think of starting out living in an apartment in the main street of town struggling while they sit in a 3/4 million dollar paid for home. Nuff said!
   Went on a 8.5 mile trail ride yesterday. Trail had overgrown with thorn bushes and was very muddy in spots. Not the best ride but was nice to be out on the horses.
  Weight loss has been a real struggle. I have lost 10lbs. Its been a bit of a yo yo diet. Loose 3lbs and gain back 2 and repeat. Having bad days and binge eating then dieting hard the next day.
  Going to my sons house for dinner today. Kind of a parents day celebration.

The countdown continues. Now only 10 days till surgery. Next week is my trans group meeting and I'm wondering weather to attend or stay home and quarantine. I would hate to come down with a bug this close. 

Quote from: Gina P on June 02, 2024, 07:14:04 AMThe countdown continues. Now only 10 days till surgery. Next week is my trans group meeting and I'm wondering weather to attend or stay home and quarantine. I would hate to come down with a bug this close.

I remember those days, frightened that any sniffle could mean a delay. The odds are slim you would catch something, but you would be quite upset if that happened. The question to ask yourself is 'which would upset me more. Missing the meeting, or having to reschedule surgery?'

I hope your celebration goes smoothly.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

Good Luck!

I hope everything goes well.

~Jenn

Yesterday I passed a friend out mowing his grass on the way back to the shop. Usually he is very talkative but since coming out he has been very distant. First he didn't seam as though he wanted to stop then as we talked he was just answering my talk dryly. My employee said wow he acted as he didn't want to talk to you! His prerogative. A very conservative republican. Chock one off to transitioning. No big thing.

Gina, you cast light and I pity the person who would choose to stand in shadow to avoid your light.

  Today its off to the scrap yard to sell some metal. I have also been selling off some of my farm equipment that I no longer need for some much needed cash. I finally received the quote for surgery which is max out of pocket on my insurance about $9k. Not unexpected.
   Almost finished with the deck project. Should wrap up today. Trying to get some big jobs out of the way at work before my surgery. I feel like the old man working all the time, but soon I will be doing nothing but resting as, the clock ticks down.

Quote from: Gina P on June 06, 2024, 05:49:26 AMYesterday I passed a friend out mowing his grass on the way back to the shop. Usually he is very talkative but since coming out he has been very distant. First he didn't seam as though he wanted to stop then as we talked he was just answering my talk dryly. My employee said wow he acted as he didn't want to talk to you! His prerogative. A very conservative republican. Chock one off to transitioning. No big thing.

All this makes me think of is all the time you wasted talking to him before coming out.

His loss.

  The waiting is almost over. Only one day till surgery. Bag is packed, up at 4am tomorrow to go to the hospital. Nothing to eat after noon today so I'm starting out with a nice bacon and eggs breakfast. I have been so nervous about this, I wonder if I will be able to get any sleep tonight. I keep wondering if I've forgotten anything. Something that will prevent it from happening. My to do list is almost completed, just a few odd things to do this afternoon. I completed the deck project and returned $300 worth of material that I didn't need. The wife is eyeing some outdoor furniture now. It would be a nice addition to the space. Though she is saying lets go pick it up today while you can still drive and lift things. 
  Completed a big door for my business yesterday, a 24' x 15'. This is probably the hardest part. Not being able to do any work for a while, and relying on others. Having a control freak personality makes it hard to just step back. 
   I will update after the surgery when I am up to it.
Hugs all Gina

Good luck with your surgery, Gina! I hope everything goes well and a speedy recovery without issues!

Hugs,

Heidemarie

Good luck, Gina! Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

I hope everything goes well for you Gina, and I'm wishing your surgical team has an awesome day tomorrow!

I remember how nervous I was before surgery. Wondering if any little sneeze or sniffle could delay surgery, reviewing all of the pre and post surgical instructions, arriving way to early at the hospital... my best advice is for you to relax. Have a nice meal, go for a walk, maybe watch a few movies. Tomorrow will happen, and you will begin a new chapter in your life.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

Best wishes dear, just relax and go with the flow. XXXX

We're all so proud of you, Gina. You've come so far and worked so hard for this. I wish you the best for tomorrow and the smoothest of recoveries. I'm sorry I didn't call you today - I was a weepy, hormonal mess and was inside of my head all day. I can't wait to hear from you when you're up to dropping me a line!

Hi Gina,

Best of Luck!

Marion

Quote from: Gina P on June 11, 2024, 05:53:02 AMI will update after the surgery when I am up to it.
Hugs all Gina

Looking forward to hearing how you're doing. Sending all of our best wishes! Recovery is really hard work! And worth every precaution.

All settled in my room. Pain is bearable. Went for  walk down the hall with the PT lady. They want me up, sitting in a chair now and not the bed. I can go back on solid food now, yay hospital food.

Yeah, it's all about circulation right now. Take care of yourself. I hope the pain stays under control.

Well done dear, wont be long till your trail riding.

I can't believe they already have you walking! I didn't get out of bed until at least day three. Just standing up was quite a chore. Do keep up with the pain meds, you can get really uncomfortable quickly if you fall behind. Glad to hear everything is going well so far.

Love always -- Jessica Rose