Now when I told my sister she said I am not surprised, well I never was "blokey" . Nice to see another UK sister on here, our numbers have dwindled of late.

Yay another uk sister 😄😄😄❤️

See I'm sort of worried I don't show any sort of feminine traits or anything which might give it away so I was thinking of starting to do more feminine things which might be indicators but would have no idea where to even begin 😅

Hi Helen,

There are lots of YouTube videos that discuss everything from makeup and hairstyles to fashion, to walking, sitting, and gestures. Maybe get some popcorn and make it a YouTube Movie Night? 

Ohhhhh I'm for sure going to be looking for that now 😄 so far I've only come across videos on YouTube for how to know if your trans and one about voice training 😅

Thanks LoriDee Friday night is now sorted 😄😄

So today anxiety is going haywire. I'm having a late party for my 30th and all the family is going to be round and knowing the attention is going to be on me is getting to me now. Originally I was ok with the idea but as it's come closer I'm suddenly getting really anxious 😭😭

Anyways, hope everyone has a great day ❤️

Just shaved the facial hair fully off and I feel so good 🥹🥹

I came out to my cousin (we're that close id say he's my brother not my cousin) yesterday!!!!

We had to pick one my mates up from town as he doesn't live nearby and so i saw it as the perfect chance.

He knows I haven't been happy for a while and was the one who's pointed out before I always look happy when people are looking at me and when I think no one is looking my guard drops and the sadness comes through.

So we was going round and I told him I'm going to back to therapy and that I wanted to tell him why but I was worried that he'd see me different and he was like nope (given name) unless it was something like you bringing harm to someone else I'll never see you different. And so I told him. I came straight out and was like I'm dealing with issues of gender and until I'm at therapy I don't know 100% what's caused it, all I know at the minute is that every time I look in the mirror I've never seen myself and that the only time I have is when I've put my photos on FaceApp, and he was like (given name) I'll always support you no matter what! I could have cried I was so happy 🥹

But then when I opened the car door to meet my mate literally as the door is opening a bird popped on my hand. Ewww. But also in a very weird way a bird pooping on you is meant to bring good luck so I'm a take that as a sign I'm on the right path ❤️

Yeah, I never really got the "bird pooping on you is good luck" thing; but since it happened, I'd say roll with it. 

I am sure it took a lot of courage for you to come out to someone so important to you.  Congratulations on being that strong. 

Work with the therapist to figure out what is going on.  I don't think I will ever know why I am trans (I have theories), so don't be surprised if you never figure it out yourself.

I think life is a gift, like a blank canvas.  You have to figure out what to do with it, what to make of it, and in the end, it will probably mean different things to different people who look at it.  But, hopefully it is beautiful (at least to you if no one else). 

Neither did I haha but occasionally ill like to attribute signs to things, like I was driving home one day and even thoiugh im not religious i said "God, if your real please send me a sign im right in what i think" I turned the corner and sky was actually blue and pinkish (as the sun was setting) so even though its digusting i still attributed a sign towards it haha.

Thank you it was honestly hard but today has been the first time in such a longgg while ive not woke up thinking negative thoughts, i mean they did start again after but it was nice not to wake up straight away thinking it.

I do really like that line of thought so I will bear that in mind

I have always been a very spiritual person (not religious). I believe that I will not be guided in the wrong direction. When I was first diagnosed with GD and trying to decide if I should pursue transition, I prayed a lot.

I have found that if I am not meant to do something, some insurmountable obstacle will block that path forcing me to go a different route. My final prayer on that subject was that I had seen no signs of not moving in that direction and decided to move forward. Instead of obstacles, I encountered affirmation after affirmation that I was on the right path. Yes, there are still obstacles but they are not insurmountable. I can, and will overcome them.

The universe will guide you, well that's what I find. Let it guide you and things fall in place.