At dinner tonight, my wife caught me staring off wresting with a thought.
"Something to share?" She asked.
I crinkled my nose and shook my head. "It's one of those things that's fully formed in my brain, and makes completely sense to me... but I fear that if said out loud it will sound..."
"Stupid?" She asked.
"Yeah," I said.
"Try me."
So I did.
You all just need to take my word for this... my family, is very attractive. My three older sisters are quite pretty. Growing up, some of my friends used to always want to come to my house to do stuff, just to catch glimpses of my sisters. Even in their 60's and early 70's, they're all still beautiful and look 20 years younger than their age.
My younger brother — from whom the whole family is estranged and to whom I'm not spoken for 10 years? — well he may have gone a bit nuts with things, but he was a model as a kid, and was on a major network soap opera, and dated a few famous actresses (that we know of) as an adult.
All that is to say, my whole life I felt like I got the fuzzy end of the lollipop.
Until... now. For the first time in my life, I actually feel like I fit in with the rest of my family. When I look in the mirror I see someone who is attractive like my sibs. So it's not just that I'm thrilled that I look as good as I do, but I look so much better as a woman than I did as a guy.
And as I was saying this to my wife, HER nose began to crinkle a bit.
"But," I continued "I know you probably don't really agree with that so much... because of course you thought I was adorable before...."
"Correct," she said, smiling, excited to see how I walked myself out of this.
"And really, I just think this is about how I FELT about myself before versus how I feel about myself now"
She just smiled and we went back to our meals.