I have an appointment with the FFS doc tomorrow. I think I will schedule the rhinoplasty. I am a little concerned about the finances of it but things have a way of working themselves out. 
  I am selling off some of my farm equipment that I no longer have need of. Its a start but not enough $. I can tap into savings but not the way I would like to go.
   The orange dilator is a stretch. Ok its really a pain. Pun intended! Well I'm starting to get used to it. A little scary that I now have an extra storage compartment. And a case of the sillies.
  Celebrated our 38th wedding anniversary. Flowers and a nice diner out. I always love the welcome ladies and so on. Had a customer say, 'Wow they sent a woman, now my door will get fixed right'. Sure is nice to be gendered correctly even in work clothes.

Quote from: Gina P on August 04, 2024, 03:12:07 PMI have an appointment with the FFS doc tomorrow. I think I will schedule the rhinoplasty. I am a little concerned about the finances of it but things have a way of working themselves out.
  I am selling off some of my farm equipment that I no longer have need of. Its a start but not enough $. I can tap into savings but not the way I would like to go.
   The orange dilator is a stretch. Ok its really a pain. Pun intended! Well I'm starting to get used to it. A little scary that I now have an extra storage compartment. And a case of the sillies.
  Celebrated our 38th wedding anniversary. Flowers and a nice diner out. I always love the welcome ladies and so on. Had a customer say, 'Wow they sent a woman, now my door will get fixed right'. Sure is nice to be gendered correctly even in work clothes.

Gina,

It is nice to be gendered correctly. Yes, welcome ladies is a welcomed greeting?

Unsure if either sex is better than the other at fixing doors.  It think it depends more on how skilled the repair person is for fixing the specific problem. 

Chrissy

Quote from: Gina P on August 04, 2024, 03:12:07 PMCelebrated our 38th wedding anniversary. Flowers and a nice diner out.

Happy Anniversary, Gina!

Wishing you and yours much happiness to come.

Hugs!

Well done ladies!!

Congratulations Gina!

I have much more patience after transitioning, which means I don't get frustrated as easily. Less frustration usually leads leads to a better result.

Love always -- Jess

Where to begin? This week has been a very bad week for me. Depressed all week. I had been on top of the world since my surgery and now have crashed. I have had a rough week at work, having to work extra hours and 9+ hrs a day to try and keep my business afloat. (yes, I'm still supposed to only be doing light duty and not pushing myself) Trying to overcome many problems from a truck not running right to miss ordered items. Add to that my lawyer sends me the next round of legal action on the estate of my mother which always fires up a lot of bad memories. Now my sister in law and her hubby come up for a visit. My wife says they are uncomfortable around me now that I have transitioned.(Florida republicans, need I say more!) I was good enough to fix everything from sewer clogs to replacing a dishwasher for her, now they are uncomfortable around me. I said 'Hi' and left after a half hour to give them some alone time without me. 
   Struggling to find time to dilate. Voice lesson have gone unpracticed. Somethings gotta give soon. I am going to go for a horse ride today. Not cleared to but I need a few minutes in the saddle to clear my head.

Gina,

I hope everything works out.  You take care.

Hugs,


Chrissy

Hang in there, Gina.

From what I understand, post-op depression is a thing. It might be the final bits of anesthesia finally letting go. But it sounds like you have a lot on your plate as it is, so if anything is off that could throw you off balance. Just take your time and work through each issue. You will get through this. Look at all of the issues that you have survived already. This too shall pass.

Hugs!

Ride the storm dear, calmer waters will be ahead. Take care XXXX

  Feeling a bit better this week. The work load as lightened a bit. The depression which I recognize as just that, has nothing to do with transitioning its all about the estate and legal battles over it.
  I have scheduled a rhinoplasty next month. First of any facial feminizing. My wife was/is against spending the money but I'm doing it anyway. She is not to upset and will get over it. I am a bit concerned about my fall allergies and having a runny nose after the procedure but looking forward to being not so nosey.

I found it worthwhile to learn to identify the little weeds that cause fall allergies, go out in the yard, and pull them!  Then I went into the next door neighbor's yard and got rid of those weeds as well!

I also run an air filter but pulling the weeds made the most amount of difference.

A nasal spray helps if you use it daily, but only if you start it  before allergy season.

Thanks Maid Marion. I was tested and Ragweed was a big one. I believe corn is another one even though they didn't test for that. I did the shots for a couple of years which helped. My problem is I live in the country surrounded by fields of corn and hay so there is no getting away from it. I do run the ac for the filtering which helps.

Quote from: Gina P on August 17, 2024, 11:33:53 AMThanks Maid Marion. I was tested and Ragweed was a big one. I believe corn is another one even though they didn't test for that. I did the shots for a couple of years which helped. My problem is I live in the country surrounded by fields of corn and hay so there is no getting away from it. I do run the ac for the filtering which helps.

I think the neighbors might get upset if you start pulling up their corn. 

  First time for everything. Working on a building under construction with no job johnny and having to pee. Had to use the woods. I miss the convenience of having the spout (not really).
  Saw my surgeon yesterday. Officially cleared to resume all work duties and able to exercise. She also said it ok to do some exploration. Rhinoplasty is scheduled for 9-12. Only 2 weeks of recovery needed, though several months to a year for the full effect to be seen.

Yes the convenience is the only thing I miss, had to get a porta loo for my garage.

Quote from: davina61 on August 21, 2024, 07:28:22 AMYes the convenience is the only thing I miss, had to get a porta loo for my garage.

Already have a bucket loo for my small horse trailer. Comes in handy.

   Voice lessons are progressing. We are working on pitch variation while speaking, This really makes the voice sound female. Pronunciation, meaning saying each word precise. I always tended to slur my words together. Of course maintaining a higher pitch all the time is a must as well. I still struggle with it, when I'm not thinking about it. I never thought this would be this hard.
  

Quote from: Gina P on August 24, 2024, 07:34:01 AMVoice lessons are progressing. We are working on pitch variation while speaking, This really makes the voice sound female. Pronunciation, meaning saying each word precise. I always tended to slur my words together. Of course maintaining a higher pitch all the time is a must as well. I still struggle with it, when I'm not thinking about it. I never thought this would be this hard.
 

Hey Gina-- stay with it. Practice. then practice a little more.  Not just pitch for me but resonance and brightness, plus "being loud".  Great things happen with just a little work along the way. Pro tip-- set an alarm on your phone to remind you to practice.

~Jenn

   I received some clothes I ordered online yesterday. 2 dresses, a pair of shorts, and some bras. I absolutely love the one dress and plan on wearing it out to dinner tomorrow evening when I celebrate my birthday. The bras are C cup and I fill them nicely. Feels good to see that. Since GRS boobs have grown some! The shorts are, tight and hug the crotch as women's shorts should. 
  When I get up in the morning, I feel my breasts and dilate, I cant believe this is me! Such a surreal feeling at times. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll wake up and be my old self. 
   Went for a short trail ride yesterday. Its nice to be on horseback again. Kept it short to just 3 mikes. Still a little sore and don't want to push it. Planning on going on vacation for a, week of trail riding in Oct. and need to work up to it.

That is a lot of good news! 
Yes, voice training is hard because you are trying to change something you have done all your life.
Best way to change is to practice for maybe ten minutes at a time several times a day.
A lot of short sessions is better than a few long ones.