Thanks Gina and Courtney. As I said, it isn't ideal, but I'm doing the best I can. And, I have found that loving myself goes a long way towards not suffering. I spent decades hurting a lot, mainly self inflicted pain.
I worried a lot about being rejected by my parents and sisters. Now, my father has passed, my mother has dementia, and my sisters and their children have completely shut me out of their lives. But, while quite disappointing , it isn't really making me unhappy.
Rejection doesn't hurt so bad when you love yourself. I don't need other people's approval, I just need to do right in my own eyes. For me, that includes doing what I believe God wants me to do. I don't know what God wants me to do about Gender Dysphoria. But, I do know a lot of things I can do. I can be kind, and helpful, and loving towards the people who choose to be around. I can help the poor. I can treat others as I would want to be treated. And, I can try to be a positive force in the lives of those who allow it.
I'd love to relax in my favorite cloths, but not being able to isn't making me unhappy. Having my wife know that I am trans, and that I don't have to hide that fact from her and that she loves me is good.
