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Started by Lori Dee, February 23, 2024, 09:53:26 AM

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Sephirah

Both massively up my street, Ash. Thank you for sharing! The whole doll thing at the start of the second video was rather Blair Witch, but I think that was just to get people watching. It does get more serious and eerie. The first video is something I find really fascinating. How you just have wasteland history dumps in the middle of nowhere and you have to try and work out what was going on.

Subbed to both channels. Thank you! <3

Cleaning up after Lori... LOL! I am saying nothing!! ;D
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tgirlamg

Quote from: Lori Dee on January 05, 2025, 06:57:36 PMWell, thank you for your service!

I was assigned there for just over five years, but never actually spent more than a day there every six months. My workplace was further south at Fort Hunter Liggett where we did classified tests on new weapons systems. Since "Temporary Duty" could not exceed six months, we had to return to our unit for one day to restart the cycle for another six months.

Good times.  :laugh:

Hey Girl

I worked Hunter-Liggett for about a year too... About 117 degrees every day... From the break of dawn... you couldn't drink enough water of put on enough sunscreen!... we had a little corral full of your M60 tanks at Ord... A thing I will always remember is looking at them under a red sunset with all the surrounding area still smoking from one of the prescribed burns we would do to clear the underbrush to facilitate unexploded ordnance removal

Here is some footage from one of the burns we did..




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"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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tgirlamg

Quote from: Sephirah on January 05, 2025, 07:03:22 PMBoth massively up my street, Ash. Thank you for sharing! The whole doll thing at the start of the second video was rather Blair Witch, but I think that was just to get people watching. It does get more serious and eerie. The first video is something I find really fascinating. How you just have wasteland history dumps in the middle of nowhere and you have to try and work out what was going on.

Subbed to both channels. Thank you! <3

Cleaning up after Lori... LOL! I am saying nothing!! ;D

Someone has to clean up her...stuff! :D
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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Lori Dee

Quote from: tgirlamg on January 05, 2025, 07:07:14 PMHey Girl

I worked Hunter-Liggett for about a year too... About 117 degrees every day... From the break of dawn... you couldn't drink enough water of put on enough sunscreen!... we had a little corral full of your M60 tanks at Ord... A thing I will always remember is looking at them under a red sunset with all the surrounding area still smoking from one of the prescribed burns we would do to clear the underbrush to facilitate unexploded ordnance removal

Here is some footage from one of the burns we did..




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That is awesome!

Those tanks would have come from Hunter Liggett. Ft. Ord was an infantry division, so it had no tanks... which confused me when I first got assigned there. All the tanks were down at Liggett. They were outfitted with lasers and sensors and we played war games, like a tank version of Laser Tag.
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tgirlamg

Quote from: Lori Dee on January 05, 2025, 07:14:33 PMThat is awesome!

Those tanks would have come from Hunter Liggett. Ft. Ord was an infantry division, so it had no tanks... which confused me when I first got assigned there. All the tanks were down at Liggett. They were outfitted with lasers and sensors and we played war games, like a tank version of Laser Tag.

Yeah I think a few were range targets etc for training but, at the time I was there they were awaiting removal of the radium treated instrument dials since the dust from them if broken was considered a rad hazard... 😬
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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Lori Dee

Quote from: tgirlamg on January 05, 2025, 07:21:26 PMYeah I think a few were range targets etc for training but, at the time I was there they were awaiting removal of the radium treated instrument dials since the dust from them if broken was considered a rad hazard... 😬

If they were used as targets they would be contaminated with depleted uranium from the ammunition shot at them too. Not to mention the ground around them where missed shots landed. Good times.  ;D
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ChrissyRyan

Tanks are interesting.  A mobile ballistic weapon.  With good mobile communications.  Armored. 
I think our tanks are made in Lima, Ohio in a specialized factory.

Old societies had "tanks" many years ago if you consider ballistas and repeating arrow launchers on carts.  Later gunpowder made for many military weapons, not limited to tanks.  I think the Chinese invented gunpowder, first used for fireworks though. 

I wish there were no more wars and incivility.  People are likely the most dangerous animal for humans.  Unfortunately, there may always be wars and incivility.


Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding. Accepting yourself as the woman you are is very liberating.  Never underestimate the appreciation and respect of authenticity.  Help connect a person to someone that may be able to help that person.  Be brave, be strong.  A TRUE friend is a treasure.  Relationships are very important, people are important, and the sooner we all realize that the better off the world will be.  Try a little kindness.  Be generous with your time, energy, wisdom, and resources.   Inconvenience yourself to help someone.   I am a brown eyed, brown haired woman. 
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tgirlamg

I think it was more LAW, 2.36 and 3.5 rockets out there... no DU that I know of was ever used.. they even had old Edsels and Studebakers etc out there as targets... found lotsa interesting stuff down range! 😅
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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Lori Dee

As the tank crew said in the movie "Fury": "Best job I ever had."


Now I feed my addiction by playing World of Tanks online. I get to play with tanks from all over the world.  ;D
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Lori Dee

About a week or so ago, I had a dream that I found interesting. I had forgotten about it until I read a post by @Camille58S.

In the dream, I had moved to a very small impoverished town. The place was almost abandoned. There had been a large factory in town that made car parts, but when it shut down most people moved away to find work. The town had a few small shops (barber shop, diner, gas station) and a post office.

I moved there because it offered a place that I could afford, but I had no real income so worked as a day laborer to make ends meet.

We worked in pairs and I don't remember what we actually did. What I remember was that each time I got paid, I used it to pay bills and had very little left over.

I was paired up with a young black man, more like a kid - I think he was about 15 or 16. We had been working together for about a month and he offered to introduce me to some of the people in town. He suggested we eat at the diner, but I couldn't afford it and he assured me that it would be taken care of.

First, we went to see his uncle who owned the barbershop. He was an elderly man with severe arthritis in his hands, but he had three women working the chairs cutting and styling hair for men and women. After some introductions and small talk, the boy handed his uncle an envelope and we left and went to the diner.

At the diner, he introduced me to the man and woman who owned the diner. He handed the woman an envelope then we took a seat and ordered lunch. As we were eating, he told me about what had happened to the town, but he had a plan to revive it.

He made a deal with the barbershop and diner that he would donate a cut of his pay every payday to help them keep their business afloat. He managed to recruit a few other workers to do the same.

The barbershop had been closed for a long time because his uncle's hands would not let him cut hair. My partner started donating cash to help him make ends meet. He then found three women in town who enjoyed cutting and styling hair, so the uncle put them to work. Before long the business was up and running again.

The diner was in a similar situation. The diner was struggling to stay open because there were not enough customers to support it. They laid off staff and considering shutting it down. My partner made the deal that day laborers would give them a cut of each paycheck and the diner would supply their lunches. This worked for a while, and now with more people employed in town at the various businesses, they had enough traffic to hire another cook, and then a waitress.

I was so amazed that this young man had such a keen grasp of the situation and was able to work out solutions that benefitted everyone. The next step in his plan was to re-open the factory. It had been sitting vacant for a number of years and he managed to locate the owners and made another deal. Instead of rent or lease, the owner would be paid in commissions once the factory was up and running. The town would take care of getting it cleaned up and ready at no cost to the owner.

The reason he told me all of this was to get my help. I agreed to participate in giving some of my pay to these businesses that were giving me "free" services. What he wanted help with was to find a company that would agree to use the factory. I had no contacts like that!

Then I remembered that there were a couple of guys who lived near the edge of town that did woodworking and carpentry. We talked to them about converting the factory from producing car parts to making furniture. They not only agreed but they belonged to a Woodworking Club and could get more workers. When I asked them where they get their wood, one of the guys had another relative who owned a sawmill and had contacts with several logging companies.

The entire plan came together and within two years the town was growing.

This young man taught me that it was not about what the town produced that made it valuable. He invested in people. He found people with unused skills and then found them a place to use those skills. The people who could not work supervised and taught new workers who were able to. People who did things as hobbies found a place to earn a living from doing things they enjoyed doing.

Production was merely a side effect.
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ChrissyRyan

It is interesting that some people remember their dreams, to varying degrees of detail, and others not so much.

It is interesting that some people dream in color while others dream in black and white.
Of course, one has to remember something about at least one dream to know that for themselves.


Chrissy
Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding. Accepting yourself as the woman you are is very liberating.  Never underestimate the appreciation and respect of authenticity.  Help connect a person to someone that may be able to help that person.  Be brave, be strong.  A TRUE friend is a treasure.  Relationships are very important, people are important, and the sooner we all realize that the better off the world will be.  Try a little kindness.  Be generous with your time, energy, wisdom, and resources.   Inconvenience yourself to help someone.   I am a brown eyed, brown haired woman. 

Lori Dee

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 09, 2025, 05:31:48 PMIt is interesting that some people remember their dreams, to varying degrees of detail, and others not so much.

It is interesting that some people dream in color while others dream in black and white.
Of course, one has to remember something about at least one dream to know that for themselves.


Chrissy


I do not always remember my dreams. Usually they are just quick snapshots or very short scenes. When I remember them with clarity, I have found that I am to learn something from them, so I pay attention.
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ChrissyRyan

Quote from: Lori Dee on January 09, 2025, 05:41:54 PMI do not always remember my dreams. Usually they are just quick snapshots or very short scenes. When I remember them with clarity, I have found that I am to learn something from them, so I pay attention.


Yes, and consider writing down your thoughts from your dreams as soon as possible after a dream to capture them.  There may be some action items for you after such a dream.

Always stay cheerful, be polite, kind, and understanding. Accepting yourself as the woman you are is very liberating.  Never underestimate the appreciation and respect of authenticity.  Help connect a person to someone that may be able to help that person.  Be brave, be strong.  A TRUE friend is a treasure.  Relationships are very important, people are important, and the sooner we all realize that the better off the world will be.  Try a little kindness.  Be generous with your time, energy, wisdom, and resources.   Inconvenience yourself to help someone.   I am a brown eyed, brown haired woman. 

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Sephirah

Quote from: Lori Dee on January 09, 2025, 04:00:36 PMAbout a week or so ago, I had a dream that I found interesting. I had forgotten about it until I read a post by @Camille58S.

In the dream, I had moved to a very small impoverished town. The place was almost abandoned. There had been a large factory in town that made car parts, but when it shut down most people moved away to find work. The town had a few small shops (barber shop, diner, gas station) and a post office.

I moved there because it offered a place that I could afford, but I had no real income so worked as a day laborer to make ends meet.

We worked in pairs and I don't remember what we actually did. What I remember was that each time I got paid, I used it to pay bills and had very little left over.

I was paired up with a young black man, more like a kid - I think he was about 15 or 16. We had been working together for about a month and he offered to introduce me to some of the people in town. He suggested we eat at the diner, but I couldn't afford it and he assured me that it would be taken care of.

First, we went to see his uncle who owned the barbershop. He was an elderly man with severe arthritis in his hands, but he had three women working the chairs cutting and styling hair for men and women. After some introductions and small talk, the boy handed his uncle an envelope and we left and went to the diner.

At the diner, he introduced me to the man and woman who owned the diner. He handed the woman an envelope then we took a seat and ordered lunch. As we were eating, he told me about what had happened to the town, but he had a plan to revive it.

He made a deal with the barbershop and diner that he would donate a cut of his pay every payday to help them keep their business afloat. He managed to recruit a few other workers to do the same.

The barbershop had been closed for a long time because his uncle's hands would not let him cut hair. My partner started donating cash to help him make ends meet. He then found three women in town who enjoyed cutting and styling hair, so the uncle put them to work. Before long the business was up and running again.

The diner was in a similar situation. The diner was struggling to stay open because there were not enough customers to support it. They laid off staff and considering shutting it down. My partner made the deal that day laborers would give them a cut of each paycheck and the diner would supply their lunches. This worked for a while, and now with more people employed in town at the various businesses, they had enough traffic to hire another cook, and then a waitress.

I was so amazed that this young man had such a keen grasp of the situation and was able to work out solutions that benefitted everyone. The next step in his plan was to re-open the factory. It had been sitting vacant for a number of years and he managed to locate the owners and made another deal. Instead of rent or lease, the owner would be paid in commissions once the factory was up and running. The town would take care of getting it cleaned up and ready at no cost to the owner.

The reason he told me all of this was to get my help. I agreed to participate in giving some of my pay to these businesses that were giving me "free" services. What he wanted help with was to find a company that would agree to use the factory. I had no contacts like that!

Then I remembered that there were a couple of guys who lived near the edge of town that did woodworking and carpentry. We talked to them about converting the factory from producing car parts to making furniture. They not only agreed but they belonged to a Woodworking Club and could get more workers. When I asked them where they get their wood, one of the guys had another relative who owned a sawmill and had contacts with several logging companies.

The entire plan came together and within two years the town was growing.

This young man taught me that it was not about what the town produced that made it valuable. He invested in people. He found people with unused skills and then found them a place to use those skills. The people who could not work supervised and taught new workers who were able to. People who did things as hobbies found a place to earn a living from doing things they enjoyed doing.

Production was merely a side effect.

I'll be honest, my gut instinct suggests your dream was about Susan's. :)
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Above all... remember: you are beautiful, you are valuable, and you have a shining spark of magnificence within you. Don't let anyone take that from you. Embrace who you are. <3

Lori Dee

Quote from: Sephirah on January 10, 2025, 03:09:03 PMI'll be honest, my gut instinct suggests your dream was about Susan's. :)

I hadn't thought of that!

The message I got from it was to invest in people and let the rest take care of itself.  ;D
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Sephirah

Quote from: Lori Dee on January 10, 2025, 03:15:08 PMThe message I got from it was to invest in people and let the rest take care of itself.  ;D

I rest my case :)
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NatalieRene

I only have had one dream I remember from this year was a strange dream where someone rang the doorbell. I found a post it note on the door with a note when I opened the door. I noticed someone walking down the walkway to the driveway and called out but then realized it was me.

Your dream seems long and detailed but it seems like your dream is a king of longing for belonging.
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Quote from: NatalieRene on January 10, 2025, 06:51:57 PMYour dream seems long and detailed but it seems like your dream is a king of longing for belonging.

That could be. Normally they are not that long or that detailed. That is why I pay attention when that happens.

Dreams are the subconscious mind's way of taking out the trash. The subconscious notices everything from sights, smells, sounds, feelings (touch), tastes, and emotions. All of that is stored in short-term memory. When we sleep and enter REM sleep, the mind begins sorting stuff to decide what is important and what can be discarded. Like sorting your mail to get rid of the junk.

It does this several times a night. Then it takes everything in the "discard pile" and gets rid of it. All of those things stored in memory take energy to store them. By getting rid of the junk, that energy is recovered. The way it does that is by sort of reversing the flow. It took in all of these images and things, so now it purges them back out in the form of dreams. The important stuff becomes long-term memories.

If you notice, when your sleep is interrupted or you become sleep-deprived, you feel worn out with no energy. This is why. When we experience a trauma, we want to just go to sleep and put it behind us. This is so the mind can get to work processing those memories and recover that energy.

What this means is that dreams are just your mind discarding things you don't need to worry about. Somehow those concepts entered your mind and the mind decided it was unimportant and did not need to be moved to long-term memory.

But I still pay attention to the ones I remember. Sometimes I will have a very strange dream and I have to wonder where the heck that came from.
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tgirlamg

Quote from: Sephirah on January 10, 2025, 03:09:03 PMI'll be honest, my gut instinct suggests your dream was about Susan's. :)

😊👍 Sephirah for the win!!!💕
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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