Hi Haya, I wish you well in your transition.
I studied Arabic for a couple of years in primary school, many years ago, but regretably I did not continue learning. I translated your Arabic script using Google Translate but Google Translate has its limitations. For example,
"I really need a mutant friend who will follow me ... " is presumably not a very good translation of what you wrote.
Above all, keep safe. Parts of Syria are obviously very dangerous now for anyone. I also know that trans or gay people fear for their lives in some Middle Eastern countries.