I bind my chest, because I di want it to be flat, but the thing is I can't feel that euphoria. Yes I do like it, but I don't feel euphoria. Sometimes I think I feel like I like my chest, but I also kinda don't, at least sometimes. I easily pass off as something other than my birth assigned gender, so I wish I could pass off as female. My body makes me euphoric and I know for a fact I'm a demiboy, but there's also moments where I kinda wanna be a demigirl when I'm not. I even use some feminine words to describe myself out of impulse and because it kinda feels okay. But I much prefer masculine ones, and I'm comfy with he/they pronouns. I also use masculine words to describe myself. Right now, I can kinda see myself as my birth assigned gender, at least physically and it makes me want to be a girl even a tiny bit. I don't feel like one. Is this normal?

Of course, it is normal.

Gender is fluid, and how we feel can be influenced by many things, like hormone levels, clothing, music, and even aromas. Some people are more in tune with their feelings than others. I began to understand this better once I got into therapy with a psychologist who specialized in gender identities. It helped me get a lot of answers to my questions. Are you seeing anyone like that?

Quote from: Lori Dee on February 27, 2025, 09:44:57 AMOf course, it is normal.

Gender is fluid, and how we feel can be influenced by many things, like hormone levels, clothing, music, and even aromas. Some people are more in tune with their feelings than others. I began to understand this better once I got into therapy with a psychologist who specialized in gender identities. It helped me get a lot of answers to my questions. Are you seeing anyone like that?

I can't really afford to see someone like that. I'm in an area where I'm generally not accepted.

Quote from: Asher0971 on February 27, 2025, 01:52:16 PMI can't really afford to see someone like that. I'm in an area where I'm generally not accepted.

You are not alone.

Are you able to talk on the phone or maybe chat via website?

Our Support Groups forum has a bunch of resource listing. Maybe someone from the organizations can help. It costs nothing to check them out.

https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,249512.0.html

Quote from: Asher0971 on February 27, 2025, 05:57:39 AMI bind my chest, because I di want it to be flat, but the thing is I can't feel that euphoria. Yes I do like it, but I don't feel euphoria. Sometimes I think I feel like I like my chest, but I also kinda don't, at least sometimes. I easily pass off as something other than my birth assigned gender, so I wish I could pass off as female. My body makes me euphoric and I know for a fact I'm a demiboy, but there's also moments where I kinda wanna be a demigirl when I'm not. I even use some feminine words to describe myself out of impulse and because it kinda feels okay. But I much prefer masculine ones, and I'm comfy with he/they pronouns. I also use masculine words to describe myself. Right now, I can kinda see myself as my birth assigned gender, at least physically and it makes me want to be a girl even a tiny bit. I don't feel like one. Is this normal?

The thing about being trans, Ash... at least for me.. is that is isn't a fair split. The most you can hope for is feeling normal. And not feeling so hung up, or obsessed with, or in pain about something. It isn't a game of extremes. At least for a lot of people. There is no euphoria. There's just normal, or dysphoria.

A lot of what we go through is just getting to where other people are as a baseline. There is no "super feeling good"... at least not after a while. There's just feeling bad, or feeling like you. The rest of life will dictate how that's going to go.

Most people never think about this. They don't wake up thinking "I feel awesome about my gender/sex!" The only time it matters is when they don't feel awesome about it. Because it's an all-pervading feeling of wrong. If you don't care about it one way or the other and think about other things in your life... that's the win condition, sweetie. In my opinion.