I just wish that all trans people could have the sudden burst of euphoria that I just had. I was putting clothes into a wish list and I realized that I don't have to hide anymore. When I get new underwear I don't have to get the boring ones that I used to buy that could pass as men's underwear. I can now choose the cute panties I want to wear. I can focus on skirts and dresses that I very much prefer to wear and only look at leggings that make a statement.
I may have regretted going with the canal in my GRS but I have never once regretted the surgery itself and when I sometimes run my hands over my body and that unsightly bulge isn't there anymore I just feel so grateful.
I realize that I am extremely fortunate as I had my surgery paid for by my provincial health insurance and I know that isn't an option for so many which is disheartening and I wish all the best.