First post, omg!!! So I live in a pretty conservative small town in TX and recently came out as MtF. I'm pre-everything and don't have access to anything to help with any dysphoria (I have top and bottom dysphoria) and just feel completely lost. Any advice would be greatly appreciated

Give the head nod, a gesture that males often do and females typically do not do.

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on April 02, 2025, 01:24:05 PMGive the head nod, a gesture that males often do and females typically do not do.

I've do that already bc I grew up around boys but it doesn't seem like it changes how they perceive me

And I don't have any masculine clothes bc my parents still believe I'm a girl

Would you be willing to cut your hair?

Clothing would be the easiest option.

Starting hitting the gym

1. the guy-to-guy head-nod - nod up with the chin, you can either say nothing or "what's up" if you know him

2. take up as much space as you like. it's very comfy to sprawl. be a gentleman and make room for a girl, but wait for another guy to make eye-contact with you to move for him.

3. try to make answers to questions and explanations as straight-to-the-point as possible

4. make liberal use of the salutations "man", 'dude', 'brother', 'bro', 'buddy', and 'this guy' - lots of variety as compared to just "girl" or "girlfriend"

5. walk with your legs, not your hips

6. appear confident - head up, aware of things around you

7. the opposite of everything you might have been taught to do as a girl

https://www.wikihow.com/Pass-As-a-Male-(For-FTMs)

Quote from: Robbyv213 on April 02, 2025, 02:46:39 PMWould you be willing to cut your hair?

Clothing would be the easiest option.

Starting hitting the gym

1. the guy-to-guy head-nod - nod up with the chin, you can either say nothing or "what's up" if you know him

2. take up as much space as you like. it's very comfy to sprawl. be a gentleman and make room for a girl, but wait for another guy to make eye-contact with you to move for him.

3. try to make answers to questions and explanations as straight-to-the-point as possible

4. make liberal use of the salutations "man", 'dude', 'brother', 'bro', 'buddy', and 'this guy' - lots of variety as compared to just "girl" or "girlfriend"

5. walk with your legs, not your hips

6. appear confident - head up, aware of things around you

7. the opposite of everything you might have been taught to do as a girl

https://www.wikihow.com/Pass-As-a-Male-(For-FTMs)

Thank you for the much needed advice about this, but I feel like if I cut my hair it'll be too obvious bc I've had long hair all my life. And as for the gym, do you have any recommendations for a workout plan? You're a lifesaver dude

Hide your hair in a hat.  Or at least put it in a ponytail.

There are boyfriend versions of women's clothing you can wear.
They are looser and less form fitting than what women normally wear.

I work out plan is going to be based off of your current fitness level, if you plan on trying to do at home workouts or if you have access to a gym or limited access to weights or resistance bands if you plan on doing body weight exercises only etc.

There are a lot of factors that I would take into consideration in building a workout routine for someone

Most men or boys want big arms, big chest and wide shoulders.

I would advice don't neglect any muscle groups as you start your fitness journey.

And then you have to consider your goals in fitness as well. Are you looking for muscle siZe, power and strength, or well rounded overall fitness.

Quote from: Robbyv213 on April 02, 2025, 03:10:51 PMMost men or boys want big arms, big chest and wide shoulders.

I would advice don't neglect any muscle groups as you start your fitness journey.

And then you have to consider your goals in fitness as well. Are you looking for muscle siZe, power and strength, or well rounded overall fitness.

I know I want power and strength but also aesthetics. I want to look big, but not Jay Cutler big (perk of having a fitness obsessed dad is knowing too many bodybuilders) I'm only 5' and overall pretty curvy and want to lose or hide my current curves and have a more "boxy" appearance and lose some of my chest without T or other medications

If you are shorter than most women it is going to be very hard to appear masculine.

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Quote from: Maid Marion on April 02, 2025, 03:28:05 PMIf you are shorter than most women it is going to be very hard to appear masculine.

I assumed so. Sadly, my genetics weren't on my side and I'm shorter than the female average

Quote from: Adrian26 on April 02, 2025, 03:02:14 PMThank you for the much needed advice about this, but I feel like if I cut my hair it'll be too obvious bc I've had long hair all my life. And as for the gym, do you have any recommendations for a workout plan? You're a lifesaver dude

You wouldn't have to go immediately from long hair that falls down your back to a buzz cut. Not sure how long your hair is now, but you could first trim it above your shoulders and let everybody get used to that under the excuse you were looking for a new haircut. Then, after 2 months, go get a pixie cut, again under the disguise to experiment and find your style and let everybody get used to that. And then you could go for the buzz cut.

Quote from: Iztaccihuatl on April 02, 2025, 04:02:13 PMYou wouldn't have to go immediately from long hair that falls down your back to a buzz cut. Not sure how long your hair is now, but you could first trim it above your shoulders and let everybody get used to that under the excuse you were looking for a new haircut. Then, after 2 months, go get a pixie cut, again under the disguise to experiment and find your style and let everybody get used to that. And then you could go for the buzz cut.

That's a amazing idea and I'll try it this summer bc I'll just say that it's too hot for long hair, which it usually is during the summer over here

Quote from: Lori Dee on April 02, 2025, 03:32:43 PMHello Adrian,

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Thank you for the warm welcome Lori! It's nice to have an understanding community

Hi Adrian

My name is Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!

I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well and they given you some very good advice.  For more ideas YouTube would also be a good a good place to give you what you need.  I have put all those suggestion in this welcome message.

I'm really glad you are here.  I know it can be tough living in a small, conservative town and feeling like you don't have access to things that could help you with how you feel.  But I want you to know you are not alone in this.  Just by being open and showing up, you have already taken some brave steps.

You are definitely on the right path.  Little things like confidently nodding, having good body language and how you express yourself all make a big difference.  Keep your head up, shoulders back and move with purpose.  Speak in a straightforward, way with words like; man, dude or bro will come naturally over time or watch what other men in your area say and do.

If you have not gotten masculine clothes yet, try layering what you have.  A hoodie or a loose shirt over a basic tee can help shape your look.  You can also tuck your hair under a hat or pull it back into a ponytail until you are ready to gradually cut it.

Strength training is a fantastic idea!  Focus on your shoulders, arms, chest and back.  This helps create a more square build and can really make a difference, even without testosterone.  If you ever do gain access to it, it will just enhance the progress you are already making.

Remember, you are valid without hormones.  You are a man simply because you are.  No one else gets to define that for you.

Just be yourself and find activities that men do that you'd enjoy.

You mention you have dysphoria with your top and bottom appearances.  To help you move forward, in this area. I would suggest connecting with a gender therapist, psychiatrist, psychologist or counsellor.  They can help you work through your thoughts and untangle all those "what ifs."  These professionals can provide valuable insights into your feelings assist you in understanding your identity and guide you in figuring out the next steps if any that feel right for you.

I would also be careful about who you tell in regards to this very personal issue and this includes family.  The reason being you have mentioned you live in Texas and given your current circumstances, Texas is the worst place to be in at the moment for transgender people.

Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads.  I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.

In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.

Take care and all the best for the future.

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Thank you for the much needed advice and support Sarah. I'm glad there's people here who are as supportive as you. I'll make sure to keep your tips in mind and try them out today and see how it goes. As of right now, Texas really isn't the best place for me, but I'm making it work. I haven't told anyone about me being a guy except for my gf and her/our( I'm her unofficial step dad) kid and a close friend of mine, all of which have been extremely supportive I don't know if there are any gender therapists in my area as I live in the Panhandle area of Texas (think Amarillo/Lubbock area) but if you know of any around here that you suggest I'll make sure to check them out. Once again, thank you for the support and advice

Quote from: Maid Marion on April 02, 2025, 03:28:05 PMIf you are shorter than most women it is going to be very hard to appear masculine.

In my band, the KB player is under 5' .. he is not mistaken for a woman.  Everything adds up when presenting so don't focus on what you can't change (that leads to being overwhelmed or dysphoria) instead work on the simple things. Those are what people subconsciously notice.

guys carry their center of balance higher in their chest/shoulders - women tend to have it lower. Men tend to have varying degrees of swagger.  Women typically have hip movement and an up/down body step.  Swagger vs up/down is all related to how you walk and the center of balance.

I remember when I came out that I 'relaxed' and walked the way that felt right. Turns out that for years I was carrying my center of balance high, like a guy. Likely from trying to fit in. When I relaxed my center of balance went lower. My spouse immediately noticed the difference.  The real key is .. don't force it, that'll look fake and draw attention to it. You want people to subconsciously recognize it.

Quote from: Adrian26 on April 02, 2025, 01:22:46 PMFirst post, omg!!! So I live in a pretty conservative small town in TX and recently came out as MtF. I'm pre-everything and don't have access to anything to help with any dysphoria (I have top and bottom dysphoria) and just feel completely lost. Any advice would be greatly appreciated

Welcome aboard, Adrian!

Is this a typo? you're saying that you're MTF in your post. I'm not saying that it takes a lot to confuse me...but you've gone and done it! 

Hugs, Devlyn