Quote from: D'Amalie on May 06, 2025, 03:10:48 PMSusan's allows me some vicarious freedom.  Many success stories here!

This has been a great value for me. I seem to be more relaxed here and I believe this has allowed me to make some of my decisions I have in the last couple of weeks.

Quote from: davina61 on May 06, 2025, 03:07:37 PMI am not much use at giving advise as it was so easy and as I have little funds I have to put up with what nature has blessed me with (between a B and C) GRS on the NHS.

I take so much from you each day, believe it or not your daily initial posts are my first reading everyday at around the time my day is beginning here in the west.

I quietly read your journey in the back ground everyday, Davina! 💗

Quote from: D'Amalie on May 06, 2025, 03:10:48 PMSusan's allows me some vicarious freedom.  Many success stories here!

Remarkable, D'Amalie! We're surrounded by wonderful, amazing people! 💓💞

Quote from: Annaliese on May 06, 2025, 03:18:35 PMThis has been a great value for me. I seem to be more relaxed here and I believe this has allowed me to make some of my decisions I have in the last couple of weeks.

This is how I started here, and continue being like this still. 💗


~ Lilis 🫂

Quote from: Lilis on May 06, 2025, 05:43:21 AM

@Sephirah You see what you started? 😊

Now I can't stop! 💗


I love you! 🥰💕

~ Lilis 🫂

Love you, too, Lilis! And I'm glad the dam has broken. You deserve to be seen. Like Ash said... there she is!!

Funny thing is, you actually look a little like the image I had in my head of you. Only that image doesn't do you justice. You are gorgeous, Lilis. As I kinda always knew you were. I adore those boots! And the girl in them. You are beautiful. And thank you for taking that leap to put yourself out there. It takes a massive amount of guts a lot of people don't have, me included.

Now your light is out from under the bushel.. keep going! <3

Also a belated happy anniversary!!

Anna, you are beautiful, too. Seems to me like every time someone shows a pic of themselves here, their inner light accentuates their outer appearance. You are glowing. I shouldn't be surprised. If what's outside is only a shadow of a reflection of what's inside... you're all stunning.

Yep. Lilis also looks a bit like Sephirah's avatar. But no worries, Annaliese, we've just begun our physigognomic transformation. Soon, we'll be rockin' tight jeans and designer boots. Until then, I do envy better than most.   

Quote from: Mrs. Oliphant on May 08, 2025, 07:07:12 PMYep. Lilis also looks a bit like Sephirah's avatar. But no worries, Annaliese, we've just begun our physigognomic transformation. Soon, we'll be rockin' tight jeans and designer boots. Until then, I do envy better than most.   

Annika.. girl you have nothing to be envious of. When you took that leap of faith and showed me what you look like... girl you are stunning. It's always in your eyes and in your smile. You, too, are gorgeous. You have that light shining through you. The hardest thing is that mountain to climb to get that confidence. You, Lilis, and Anna... you are such beautiful, shining women. Moreso because your vulnerability makes it hard. You climbed Everest and planted the flag!

Lilis is way more beautiful than any avatar I use. I wish my hair had that uniform curl. My hair was always a mess, lol. Like some stylist smoked too many drugs and kind of went nuts with the curling tongs. I had to fight it every day of my life just to not feel like I got dragged through a hedge backwards.

You are all far, far more beautiful than you ever think you are. And mostly because you've got to the point where you have the confidence to let the world see your light.

Keep shining. Because you are a beacon for others. <3

Quote from: Sephirah on May 08, 2025, 01:39:01 PMLove you, too, Lilis! And I'm glad the dam has broken. You deserve to be seen. Like Ash said... there she is!!

Love you, too, Lauren. 💗

Those words "there she is" hit me so deeply.

There's such relief in no longer living solely in reflections and shadows, and in finally stepping into the light and being seen not just in spirit, but in the physical world.

For so long, this world has kept me in a quiet presence behind the curtains, waiting for the right moment.

Now, to feel visible, to be visible, is equal vulnerable, and freeing.

Thank you, Lauren and Ashley for witnessing me.

It means more than words can say. 💓

QuoteFunny thing is, you actually look a little like the image I had in my head of you. Only that image doesn't do you justice. You are gorgeous, Lilis. As I kinda always knew you were. I adore those boots! And the girl in them. You are beautiful.

Lauren, you truly know how to make me feel special.

Bushing...😊

QuoteAnd thank you for taking that leap to put yourself out there. It takes a massive amount of guts a lot of people don't have, me included.

Now your light is out from under the bushel.. keep going! <3

Also a belated happy anniversary!!

No, thank you, Lauren for the inspiration. Honestly, I couldn't do this alone! 🫂💞


~ Lilis 💗

Lilis, you are special. I have met very few people in my life with the warmth, kindness, gentleness, wisdom, grace and humbleness you have within you. I kind of think this place attracts a certain kind of person because most who share these traits are people here.

And girl, you're never alone. I will always be your cheerleader. See? *\o/*

<3

Quote from: Lilis on May 02, 2025, 01:00:46 PM

Just got home from my procedure, nothing serious, but I'm glad it's over.

I have to admit, seeing my gender marker change from (F) for Female to (TF) for Transgender Female brought up some mixed emotions.

There's a bit of sadness in it.

I had come to appreciate the visibility and affirmation that came with simply being marked (F).

Still, this feels like a sign that it's time to move forward with updating my legal name and gender marker on my ID.

Starting to look into the process now...

~ Lilis 💗

I received a call today from the law firm's office... they're ready to get the ball rolling on the documentation for my name change and just need a few personal details to move forward.

The only ID they're not handling at the moment is the passport, due to the current political climate.

That's okay, though... I don't have any plans to travel internationally anytime soon.

We're scheduled to meet in June to finalize everything before they submit the paperwork to the court on June 10th.

Funny enough, June 10th, 2024 was also the day I began my GAHT journey.

It's like June 10th is becoming my new birthday. 🎂🎈

And honestly, I'm a bit tired of stretching myself thin doing everything DIY..  so I'm treating myself to some hired help on this one.

~ Lilis 💗

Quote from: Lilis on May 09, 2025, 11:34:25 AMThose words "there she is" hit me so deeply.

There's such relief in no longer living solely in reflections and shadows, and in finally stepping into the light and being seen not just in spirit, but in the physical world.

For so long, this world has kept me in a quiet presence behind the curtains, waiting for the right moment.

Now, to feel visible, to be visible, is equal vulnerable, and freeing.

Thank you, Lauren and Ashley for witnessing me.

~ Lilis 💗

"Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸"

Each courageous step leads to the next and before you know it...  You have forged a life filled the the very things you thought would never be yours to experience! 🌻

Onward Brave Sister! The World Is Yours! 🤗

Hugs, Love and Respect...

Ashley 💕

Lilis, I'm sorry to be so delayed in my responses to your posts here. We're in a foreign place (to me anyway; my wife was born and grew up here), with variable internet and uncertain plans from hour to hour.

Just know that I am so proud of you and happy for you for the way you've taken control of your life, your path, your sense of who you are. It's exciting and it's inspirational to me and, I'm sure, to others.

I thank you for being you and for sharing your journey here. It lifts me.

Quote from: Lilis on May 09, 2025, 09:44:43 PMI received a call today from the law firm's office... they're ready to get the ball rolling on the documentation for my name change and just need a few personal details to move forward.

The only ID they're not handling at the moment is the passport, due to the current political climate.

That's okay, though... I don't have any plans to travel internationally anytime soon.

We're scheduled to meet in June to finalize everything before they submit the paperwork to the court on June 10th.

Funny enough, June 10th, 2024 was also the day I began my GAHT journey.

It's like June 10th is becoming my new birthday. 🎂🎈

And honestly, I'm a bit tired of stretching myself thin doing everything DIY..  so I'm treating myself to some hired help on this one.

~ Lilis 💗

Lilis!

Congrats of the name change gears turning! 🤗

From the moment I made my decision in 2013... my life became awash daily in uncanny synchronicities and "signs from the universe" of sorts that I was finally on the right path and the universe wanted me to know.✨🌞✨

One of them was the date I submitted my name and gender change paperwork was my maternal grandmother's birthday but I hadn't realized it until afterwards, and the day they gave me to appear to the court  to make it happen was my mothers birthday... keep your heart open and your eye out because girl... you are 100% on your right path 🌸

Onward Brave Sister!!!

A 💕

Quote from: tgirlamg on May 10, 2025, 10:59:13 AMLilis!

Congrats of the name change gears turning! 🤗

Thank you so much, Ashley!

QuoteFrom the moment I made my decision in 2013... my life became awash daily in uncanny synchronicities and "signs from the universe" of sorts that I was finally on the right path and the universe wanted me to know.✨🌞✨

One of them was the date I submitted my name and gender change paperwork was my maternal grandmother's birthday but I hadn't realized it until afterwards, and the day they gave me to appear to the court  to make it happen was my mothers birthday...

Wow... it sounds like everything was in perfect alignment, thank you for sharing this, Ashley!

Quotekeep your heart open and your eye out because girl... you are 100% on your right path 🌸

Onward Brave Sister!!!

A 💕

Thank You! 💓


~ Lilis 🫂

Quote from: flowers_and_trees on May 10, 2025, 09:54:41 AMLilis, I'm sorry to be so delayed in my responses to your posts here.

No worries Pema, you and the others are always here for me all the time all day, everyday. Thank you so much for stopping by. 💞

QuoteWe're in a foreign place (to me anyway; my wife was born and grew up here), with variable internet and uncertain plans from hour to hour.

Wishing you and your wife a fun and safe trip. You know what they say "there is no place like home", enjoy!

QuoteJust know that I am so proud of you and happy for you for the way you've taken control of your life, your path, your sense of who you are. It's exciting and it's inspirational to me and, I'm sure, to others.

Thank you so much, Pema! 💓

QuoteI thank you for being you and for sharing your journey here. It lifts me.

Thank you again, it means a lot when my story touches and helps someone else! 🫂💞


~ Lilis 💗

Quote from: tgirlamg on May 10, 2025, 09:10:04 AM"Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸"

Each courageous step leads to the next and before you know it...  You have forged a life filled the the very things you thought would never be yours to experience! 🌻

Onward Brave Sister! The World Is Yours! 🤗

Hugs, Love and Respect...

Ashley 💕

I love you too, Ashley! 💗

Stopping by to give one of my heroines a giant cyberhug.

And my favourite puppy.

*massive hugs to you both*

Girl, you already know how I feel about you. You are someone special in the world.

The weird thing is... I joined this site back in June of 2008.. so it's fitting that it's your birthday. The world moves on and the new generation of people with light in their soul carry things forward.

If I don't get the chance before now (although I'm hoping I do)... Happy Birthday, Lilis.

You are a gift to the world. <3

A Bittersweet Goodbye to Dr. (S), and a Hopeful Step Forward! 💖

I will call her Dr. (S), here for privacy.

I want to share a personal update in my transition journey that carries both a heavy heart and a hopeful spirit.

As of this month, Dr. (S) is no longer my provider for gender affirming hormone therapy (GAHT).

It's hard to put into words how much her presence and guidance meant to me, especially in a world where competent, compassionate, gender affirming medical care can be difficult to come by.

Dr. (S) saw me, affirmed me, and stood by me in some of the most vulnerable and powerful steps of my life.

For that, I'll always be grateful.

The change wasn't something I expected so soon, but I also understand the times we're living in.

The political climate around transgender healthcare has created a storm of uncertainty for both patients and providers. I believe Dr. (S) is going to a better place for now, maybe somewhere safer, maybe somewhere she can do her work without as much constraint.

I wish her rest, freedom, and continued purpose.

Even though the transition is hard, I trust that the next chapter will bring good things.

My new provider is Dr, (R), she will be continue my gender affirming hormone therapy (GAHT).

From what I've seen so far, I feel she brings the same spirit of respect and dedication that Dr. (S) embodied.

It sucks starting over, I won't lie, but I'm choosing to walk forward with trust.

Here's to new beginnings. 🍷


~ Lilis 💗

Quote from: Lilis on May 15, 2025, 09:50:25 PMIt sucks starting over, I won't lie, but I'm choosing to walk forward with trust.

Here's to new beginnings. 🍷

I had a similar situation. My endocrinologist treated me for over three years, then retired from the VA. That shut down the entire endocrinology clinic in this area, so the VA sent me to a non-VA endocrinologist at the local hospital. It turns out that the two doctors had worked together for some time, so things worked out well. Then the VA created a new Women's Health Specialty Clinic and moved me from seeing an endocrinologist to a gynecologist. She is absolutely wonderful.

I think the hardest part is letting go of someone you have trusted for so long, just to turn around and have to get to know a new provider (and for them to get to know you).

Quote from: Lori Dee on May 15, 2025, 10:07:22 PMI think the hardest part is letting go of someone you have trusted for so long, just to turn around and have to get to know a new provider (and for them to get to know you).

Yes this. You're absolutely right, the hardest part is letting go.

She wasn't just my provider, after a while she became part of the process.

Hearing how your path unfolded, with one door closing and another one opening, reminds me that this moment isn't the end.

I am glad things worked out good for you.

Thanks, Lori. 💗

~ Lilis 🫂

Quote from: Lilis on May 15, 2025, 10:15:33 PMI am glad things worked out good for you.

Thanks. I'm about to go through the process again. My appointments in June will be my "goodbyes" to my current providers, and I will start with new ones after I move to Colorado in July. I have been with my Primary physician for almost ten years. In the back of my mind is a hint of mistrust that anyone can truly replace her. But the reality is that they are professionals and they work at the VA because they want to help veterans. That gives me hope.

Quote from: Lori Dee on May 15, 2025, 10:20:42 PMI'm about to go through the process again.

Oh wow, Lori, I didn't realize you're about to go through another round of goodbyes yourself.

Ten years with a primary provider is such a meaningful stretch of time... that's not just medical care, that's shared history. I feel your connection. But you're right, those who work in places like the VA and women's health often choose to be there because they want to help.

That care and dedication, I'll miss that most about Dr. (S). Especially her prompt, thoughtful replies to my emails and requests.

She made the process feel personal and supported.

Wishing you a smooth and supported transition, Lori.



~ Lilis 💗