Hi NoelleMy name is
Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!
I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.
Thank you for your heartfelt introduction. I want to start by acknowledging the struggle you have been through. It takes strength to return to yourself after everything life has thrown at you and I'm glad you are here now.
I was also aware from a young age that I was different, though there were no clear answers at the time. The information simply did not exist for people like me at the time. I had only a couple of snippets to guide me when I made those first serious steps toward living as myself. Over time I bought clothes and other items, but thinking about it now, I was not happy or sad. It just felt normal, like a natural part of life. Still, I remember crying when I left family and friends. To live my life as me. There was something that I suppose I could never put my finger on, not that I realized, I was finally taking a step that aligned with who I was. That feeling never leaves you.
I will never forget the first time I fully dressed as a female and sat in a chair and saying, "this feels right". That moment of clarity is unforgettable. We never forget those special times that bring us happiness and show us exactly who we are. Your memory of seeing yourself as Noelle for the first time and crying for hours, is something I understand completely.
I'm very sorry to hear about how you were outed before you were ready. No one deserves to be forced out of hiding before they feel safe. It's a cruel experience and you did not deserve that. But what matters is that even after everything, Noelle was still there, quietly living in those small acts of truth, panties under your clothes, a bra when you could manage it, dressing up when it was safe. Those I can certainly relate too. That strength, even when it felt hidden, never went away.
Now you are stepping forward again and this time with full intention. That takes courage. I have never looked back on what I have done and I most certainly have never regretted what I have done. I truly hope you find that same peace and certainty as I have in my life.
Just a small suggestion for next time, it helps to break your story into a couple of paragraphs. It makes it easier to read and gives each part a moment to breathe.
Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads. I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.
In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.
Please keep in mind when posting that this is an
ALL AGES PUBLIC Forum and the internet never forgets. Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.
Take care and all the best for the future.
Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!Best Wishes AlwaysSarah BGlobal Moderator@Devlyn @Jessica_Rose @Mariah @Northern Star Girl @Lori Dee @NoelleW
