Quote from: Alana Ashleigh on August 21, 2025, 05:08:37 PMI got home from work last night and was reading a book, and something about me just felt different. Maybe it's my energy, Maybe I finally feel like my true self. I just can't find the correct words to express it. 

You will have many times of elation during your transition journey.  Savor them.

Quote from: ChrissyRyan on August 21, 2025, 09:14:23 PMYou will have many times of elation during your transition journey.  Savor them.

Chrissy,
I'm very much enjoying this. It feels surreal to see the changes in mirror happening. I'm riding a very nice euphoria highs

Quote from: Alana Ashleigh on August 22, 2025, 06:40:15 PMChrissy,
I'm very much enjoying this. It feels surreal to see the changes in mirror happening. I'm riding a very nice euphoria highs

It helps when you get a good night's sleep, eh? 

This week so far has been one of more enjoyable weeks in my transition. I'm really starting to see changes. My lower body is really starting to become shapely. It feels surreal to see it happening. One thing that keeps popping into my head is the desire to have my femininity noticed, and admired. It's a thought that I can't seem to get out of my head. I tried to placate that feeling today when I did my
makeup. I went pretty heavy with my mascara. I put on four coats of mascara instead of the one thin coat I normally do.

Quote from: Alana Ashleigh on August 22, 2025, 06:56:46 PMThis week so far has been one of more enjoyable weeks in my transition. I'm really starting to see changes. My lower body is really starting to become shapely. It feels surreal to see it happening. One thing that keeps popping into my head is the desire to have my femininity noticed, and admired. It's a thought that I can't seem to get out of my head. I tried to placate that feeling today when I did my
makeup. I went pretty heavy with my mascara. I put on four coats of mascara instead of the one thin coat I normally do.

That is a lot of mascara.  Do enjoy your expressions of femininity.

For me I go minimalist with makeup as less is more.  But that is just me.  It works for me.

For others, well, they have their desired looks and we all have different skin and undertones.
We each have our ways to express ourselves.


It is nice to be feminine, that is for sure.


Chrissy

Quote from: Alana Ashleigh on August 22, 2025, 06:56:46 PMThis week so far has been one of more enjoyable weeks in my transition. I'm really starting to see changes. My lower body is really starting to become shapely. It feels surreal to see it happening. One thing that keeps popping into my head is the desire to have my femininity noticed, and admired. It's a thought that I can't seem to get out of my head. I tried to placate that feeling today when I did my
makeup. I went pretty heavy with my mascara. I put on four coats of mascara instead of the one thin coat I normally do.

Trust me, Alana, your femininity is noticed. And it has nothing to do with how you look. <3

I went into the weekend riding a euphoria high, only to have dysphoria, and envy come back. I'm dealing with some bottom dysphoria too. It's been a disappointing weekend. I haven't had any dysphoria since I started hrt in May.

Some days are tougher than others.  Envy is best when it is not present.

I have it some days. 


Chrissy

Like yours, Alana, my body is shapeshifting and I experience similar mood swings as those you describe. As these changes occur, my circle keeps getting smaller and smaller. I comfort myself by telling the image in the mirror, 'I'm really the only one who cares what you look like.' That seems to help me keep perspective.

I went swimming yesterday and had a hard time getting my swim trunks on. I've had more fat redistribution than I thought. I went for my morning workout and noticed I've lost a bit of my strength. My upper body seems to be the most affected. My lower body has lost some strength as well. It takes a bit more effort to lift weight I used to do with ease. I ran a mile for part of my training, and I definitely need a sports bra when I run now.

Quote from: Alana Ashleigh on Today at 08:23:57 PMI went swimming yesterday and had a hard time getting my swim trunks on. I've had more fat redistribution than I thought. I went for my morning workout and noticed I've lost a bit of my strength. My upper body seems to be the most affected. My lower body has lost some strength as well. It takes a bit more effort to lift weight I used to do with ease. I ran a mile for part of my training, and I definitely need a sports bra when I run now.

This sounds as if there will be more nice changes to come!

Chrissy