It would probably surprise you , but Im coming more to terms with my manhood, as a androgyne/transgendered male

Its something of the last 2 weeks really...I started noticing men, on Tv shows, outside etc...that attracted me in the way they presented themselves; I liked them....mostly in admiration, sometimes the odd crush *sob* OFCOURSE theres a lot of the men who dont do it for me, but theres still quite a few who do!
I think its something we dont like to talk about as genderqueer males; we want to share our feminity that we really feel is ours and our right to express it! We, in a lot of cases repressed it or didnt dare to show them. But what about the other feelings - I dont necesarilly say traits or beahviour, although I can definately see more masculine traits like Courage and Pride reflected into me, and its not bad!-

I think this process is going to really add to myself so much, and - how weird it may sound - will , and I already feel the rush I have at the moment! it will probably make me express my feminity more in the future
I simply want to be that Venusamartian Earthling I ought to be!
Thanks for reading