Ok, so I tried going to therapy once before and it didn't really work out.
Basically last time I went to my GP and told her that I have GID and that I'd like her help in finding a therapist that would be able to talk to me.
The only person she found that had experience and was accepting new patients was two hours away. It didn't work out for a number of reasons (financial and personal).
So I'm at a point where I think I need therapy, though not entirely sure what for. All my life I've buried my emotions and I've become very cold when dealing with people. Not necessarily mean, but I veil my true feelings, sometimes I'm misleading, sometimes I just outright lie. If I go to therapy, I'll be honest, I don't really see a point to going to therapy if I'm not honest.
I've always considered myself a responsible person, but I'm at a huge turning point in my life. I don't want to continue my life living the way I am, it's tearing me up inside, I hate how I have to act, how I have to pretend to be normal. I need it to be fixed. I know there are options for how to fix this. I could start self medicating, but I'd rather do things responsibly. So I think the best option for me is to find a therapist.
BUT, I have no idea how to find one. Can I just call up people's offices and ask if they have experience with TS clients? If they're accepting new patients? Do I need a referral? What things should I look for? How much should it cost? How would I even start looking for someone? Should I look for a psychologist, or a psychiatrist? Can both still give me any of the required letters to start going on HRT? If I can't find someone with experience with TS clients, is it worth going at all? Are there things I could look for in a therapist that would suggest they'd be good? Certain techniques they use?
So if anybody can give any suggestions or help, I'd be so grateful.
If it helps, I live in Windsor Ontario Canada. Right across the river from Detroit, I could make it to detroit if need be, but I don't have a car so it'd have to be somewhere in Windsor or at most downtown detroit.
I'm also still a student, so finances are a huge concern for me - most of my money goes straight to rent and food.
Well, thanks in advance. Like I said, any help would be amazing.
Thanks. ^_^
-Floating.