Hello all,
I figured after several months of lurking here and being part of the IRC chat, I figured I would do a full out introduction on here. My name is the obvious: Trista. It rocks, I know. I am twenty-two and am from North Carolina but was born in Alabama.
I have been on HRT for two and a half weeks. This is likely to be on and off for the next year because of my current job. I am a soldier in the Army and am deployed to Iraq. Getting HRT supplies sent here works sometimes and sometimes does not. I had previously been on HRT for two months before being deployed here for fifteen months.
As far as my history and childhood goes, it has not been the most favorable. I never fit in and still do not fit in with guys; I can be around them but once they start talking about things guys love to do, I get uninterested and feel uncomfortable like, "HELLO!? Can you not see me standing right HERE???" I get along with girls really well and have all my life, moreso than males. Even when I was in preschool/elementary I could be found with the girls instead of the guys. Here at work, I am the only guy out of nine people and I do not feel out of place and they often get into 'girl only' conversations forgetting that I am a guy because I act/blend in with them so much.
Around fourth grade, I moved schools because of my parents divorcing. At my new school I was out of place and never really made any friends and by the time I hit high-school, everybody thought I was just gay and everybody made fun of the way I did everything from talk to the way I walked. This continued from high-school into the Army it would seem and people always tell me I need to quit "acting like a girl and man up."
However, congruent to being harassed at school non-stop, I told my family and my friends I should have been born a girl, and nobody really took me seriously. Some of my friends were like, "That would be cool, then you could have sex for free and nobody would turn you down!" But that was never the reasoning behind it. The only thing that come of it was my first and second abusive step-dads being more abusive (both of which are in jail now). When I finally got my parents to atleast partially take me serious they sent me to 'friend' psycologist and basicly all he tried to do was convince me that how I felt was wrong and I needed to stop acting childish.
After moving out and being on my own I told them that I was going to do something about how I have felt my whole life and I did not life under their roof anymore so, I was going to do what I needed to do to make me happy. When they found out I was serious enough to the point to start HRT my family has disowned be and acted like I am trying to ruin their lives. Most of my friends stopped being my friend, only my close friends remain. I think if they were not so closed minded things would have went smoother.
My dad telling me, "No son of his better say anything like that ever again... if he does, he's not my son." was not the best of replies to hear when you are 7. I see now he was serious and I do not foresee it changing soon. My mom told me that after alot of thought that she has decided that, "she loves me enough to know she still wants to have something to do with me" But not for my sake... for her own sake to say that she "still has a son". My grandparents told me I should come back to Alabama and be their grandson and they will pretend like nothing was ever said. So... I do not think my family is very supportive of me at all in this.
But enough about my past and my seemingly retarded family. Some of the things I DO like are things like, sleep (esp lately), designing websites, helping others, working on cars, driving them, legos, listening to music, dancing to the music I listen to, drinking games, clubs, reading, paint ball, shopping with my friends, going to the movies with my friends, looking at art, designing things like my future home and other things.
Some of the things I do not like are judgemental people, people that prove themselves to be ignorant, old policies that have no bearing in todays world, violence, guns, fighting, driving slow, cheaply made things, clowns, homo/trans phobes, sand, 130F weather, acne, badly made music, cheaply made films, people that hate Katurday, people that approach me for sex just because I am trans, short hair, uniformity, and other things. >_<
Some of my life long goals include a full transition and hopefully a life some point as a married woman with atleast one or two kids. To get my certifications and get a job making atleast 70k/yr+. The previous is why I joined the Army, to get a clearance and for them to pay for $3,000 worth of testing and my books to study; to build my own home and to just live a comfortable life finally being me and not worrying about if I have enough money to last me till next week. I also like nice stuff, so somewhere in there would be aquiring a nice car and furnishing my house with nice things and dressing nice.
Sorry if this was a bit much, my posts wont always be so long and selfish!
-Trista
