Alright, new topic 'cause Brady wanted one.

I'm interested in how everyone deals with the mental aspect of T.

For me, i am actually enjoying life now.  My anxiety is gone.  I am happy.  From where i came from (shut in) its a huge change and a lot to wrap my brain around.  I'm wondering how you guys have dealt with your mental/emotional changes.  Don't think about it?  Am I over analyzing it?

Also, for the new urges that come with hormones.  Its strange 'cause i never had them before.  I biologically understand but at the same time I don't 'cause I don't have the parts.  For me its ingrained 'cause the human race needs to multiply.  But since I can't procreate than what is going on?  So that's another thing I'm trying to wrap my brain around.  Anyone else think about that aspect?

Maybe I'm being too intellectual about it.

This is a whole new life for me and it feels really weird when i think about what i was like even a year ago.

Jay. Is. Jealous!   

The hoops I have to jump through just to get an appointment is ridiculous.  First a referral.  From a primary.  Okay.  Fax not good enough.  THEY have to call.  THEY have to make the appointment.  I mean really, WTF??  Reality is if I really want T I can just go get it through legal channels with no docs involved.  I'm choosing to do it properly and be monitored.  But this is really crazy.

I call the primary and you can't speak to a human about referrals, you have to leave a message.  And they tell you it might be 2-3 days before they can help you.  I mean, come on!! 

I have no idea how far in advance this endo schedules, so I want to get on the schedule, not wait until Christmas!! 

Anyway, enjoy T!

As for the urges, I've been horny since I was 10.  At least now I have (almost) the appropriate anatomy to j/o with.  My new prosthetic can NOT come soon enough either.

Did I mention I am NOT a PATIENT MAN??!??   

Jay...overcaffeinated again...

Jay, dude, I feel ya. Before I started T it felt like it was taking forever. Just know that you have a lot to look forward to!

Urges, yea...tons. I'm also a lot more laid back than I used to be, and I've always been a really chill type of guy. I think if I get anymore laid baci I'll fall on me arse (haha, I made a funny). T has been really good to me so far. I can even see the makings of a mustache! 

No "new urges" really, other than sex. I really wish I could be the stereotypical "i only want sex from you" guy, but unfortunately It's hard to have sex with someone I don't have any emotional feelings for. Bah!
My minds been a bit on cruise control these past couple of days, my next shot is later today, so don't know if that's what the problem is. Anyone else ever feel just cloudy? I have REALLY high highs, then wake up feeling like s*** other days.
It's been 3 months on T, was told after 3 months they'd do blood work, make sure everythings going smooth, and we can talk about upping the dosage, and doing it every week. How long before any of you other guys upped your dosages? (Hope I'm not violating any rules in asking this.)

I did a gradual increase, increasing dosage every three months, so I think that's standard for docs who do it that way.

As for the blahs before shot, if you're on every two weeks, it's because T clears out of your system in 10 days. Weekly shots do give you more steady levels. I switched to them as soon as the dosage was worth dividing in two and it made a lot of difference.

Dennis

QuoteUrges, yea...tons. I'm also a lot more laid back than I used to be, and I've always been a really chill type of guy. I think if I get anymore laid baci I'll fall on me arse (haha, I made a funny). T has been really good to me so far. I can even see the makings of a mustache!

Yeah, dealing with that and the new found life are two things that i didn't expect.  I was a very non-sexual person before.  I'm finding that there is a whole new me and it is a bit tough to come to terms with.

Jay, i had to go through hoops too.  I think they do that to us on purpose.

I'm on the lowest dosage every ten days and except for the first week i haven't noticed any dip in my moods.

I understand why they have hoops for those of us seeking hormones of our gender and not our body, what with side effects, risks, etc.

BUT: I never told the endo *why* I wanted the appointment.  It's not like I called and said, hey, I'm ftm, I need an appt. for T.  I just said I was a new patient and needed an endo consult, which is true, as I have some questions for the endo before I have my hysto, wrt possible oophorectomy or not.  And I have my hysto consult in less than a month.

Jay

I got more energy. I'm stonger.  I'm happier b/c this is me.  

Quote from: J.T. on June 11, 2008, 07:45:30 PM
Also, for the new urges that come with hormones.  Its strange 'cause i never had them before.  I biologically understand but at the same time I don't 'cause I don't have the parts. 

u get used to'em.    u got the parts!  u just gotta learn to work w/what u got  

here's what i mean by i don't have the parts... biologically sex is to procreate, create babies.  don't have sperm.  can't create babies.  so what's the point?  i can't multiply.

that's where the urges come from, an instinctual need to multiply.  but i can't, so that's what is screwing my head.

Quote from: J.T. on June 13, 2008, 09:37:24 PM
here's what i mean by i don't have the parts... biologically sex is to procreate, create babies.  don't have sperm.  can't create babies.  so what's the point?  i can't multiply.

hey dude u just gotta work w/what u got.  yep I dont have sperm either.  cant create babies. can't multiply.  what's thepoint right? the point's that I'm happy. I'm me. I dont care 'bout the rest.   there are many bio dudes that cant multiply or have babies.  I'm like them..so?

Very few things on this earth have only one purpose, and there's certainly more to sex than making babies. The urge comes from more than a desire to procreate.

Dennis

The urge comes from more than a desire to procreate.

Matter of fact most of the guys I know try to avoid it at all costs while having as much sex as they can.

Quote from: tekla on June 14, 2008, 10:57:17 AM
The urge comes from more than a desire to procreate.

Matter of fact most of the guys I know try to avoid it at all costs while having as much sex as they can.

I guess when you look at things that way a trans man is luckier than a bio dude 

Great sex without love, is still, great sex.  Not everything has to be forever, sometimes tonights enough.