QuoteI feel odd asking because I feel guilty that the health risks are a consideration for me, I often hear that it needs to be a life and death situation to do it. Yet when I look at not 'transitioning' in any form I just feel dead inside, like I am already on the road to dieing even if I don't actually physically die, looking down the barrel of a long life with this horrible sadness. But there is this fear that this would all be a horrible mistake. I don't think I am the only one with these fears but I still have them and they are not nice.
You're not alone Nicky, (I hope thats right

) I feel much the same way.
I've read conflicting info on this. I don't have total recall but is seems like
I remember Tink may have said one time that her health had gradually declined and
her endo felt long-term HRT had contributed to that. I hope she responds because I'd
like to know more. I think others have said that Estrogen is natural and protects us from a
lot of the male problems like heart disease. I really think as you do the big problem is spiro or other
anti-androgens.
For me four or so months of HRT has given me much of what I wanted. My body looks and
feels female. My skin is soft and hairless. No I don't have hips and may never have them, but I
have everything else and it's SO calming to see. I can totally see being happy long term as I
am right now.
With that said the longer I'm on HRT the stronger the feeling I have that "he" needs to go at
some point. When I started I felt as you do that I did not need SRS, now I think it would
be pretty awesome but I don't have to do it. Tomorrow I may not be able to live without SRS.
This is a great topic that affects many of us.
Amanda