Busy month for me.. I came out to my parents and my sisters. My parents reacted with shock, but love and concern for me. My sisters with love and support, even my fundy sis! My youngest son is like, no big deal! My eldest is shocked but very loving and supportive. My middle son, who hasn't spoken to me in 4 years, is coming to talk to me, probably just will spend the time blasting me, but that's an improvement. My ex was even caring.. that's something big! Much better than I expected!
I got offered a job as a transitioned female! In a room of the headquarters of HRC, no less! LOL! In discussions.. will make my transition smoother and easier, but no guarantees in any event. It feels like I'm an affirmative action case, but I will take it! I know I can do the job well. I have a side door entrance to the DSM talks and people, this will be interesting. I'm ready for a long haul on that one.
Getting my face done by Dr. Z mid July.. he and I have some history in common, same places doing some medical training. It's nice to make a connection. Not a lot of work anywhere, but some a lot of places. My nose he acted as if it were unclean! I'm sure to a plastics guy, it is. I was amused!
Busy with voice therapist and electrolysis. Done with laser!
It seems that for so long, I couldn't see that others supported me and loved me. Such a mindset. If I couldn't love and support myself, I couldn't see how others could. They do, and have, and I haven't seen it. This is not all about gender. it's about enlightenment, about opening my eyes, about shedding false views, about seeing beauty where I saw only appalling ugliness. It's about living, for a damn change! Instead of wishing for death every day of my life.
Strange thing, life is.
Namaste, Tara
