I thought about doing this. But I realized that there might be a bit of an issue. I noticed that the areas of my legs I shaved as a young teenager are darker and thicker than the areas I didn't shave. So I considered shaving portions of my face where I wanted something to grow would do something to that effect. But I worry that it won't really do anything, and so I'm leaving it alone for now. I don't mind the peach fuzz at all, to be honest. But I strive for T because of it's many elements, facial hair included.
I don't shave my legs. Someone told me that if I'm doing it only because I'm female that I should stop because it's in conflict with my gender identity and puts stress on me. I did and you know what? I stressed out a whole lot less about my legs.
I do, however, shave my armpits, for hygienic purposes. My dad said, "What makes you want to shave? Don't you think you're a guy?" I tried to explain that some guys do shave under their arms, like athletes and guys who like to be shirtless on a regular basis. I told him that armpit hair helps retain the smell, which is not something I want, because I have "girl smell." Well, he says that only gay guys tend to shave under their arms. I gave him a long look with my eyebrows up. He hasn't forgotten that I still like boys, just not in a "feminine" way. When I try to explain that to him, he doesn't get it. No one does. The feminine way is playing wife/girlfriend and having vaginal sex... providing that female role whether it's nurturing or tough or understanding or callous. It doesn't have to have stereotypes attached to it; being the girlfriend/wife is different than being the boyfriend/husband, especially in gay relations.
So my question is regarding the peach fuzz: only girls have this? A guy passes easier if he has NO hair on his face rather than the light fuzz? Because I will mind the fuzz if it is what's giving me away (more recently people have been calling me "she," but my dad also gets around and often says, "this is my daughter" to people and stuff, not to be mean, he's just being honest with himself). But I know I pass pretty well. My dad said to his neighbor, "My daughter's staying here for the summer" and his neighbor did that slow nod and went, "Oh..." I'm sure he thought I was a guy until my dad said that. And I wasn't mad at my dad. I haven't started transition. I'll only be mad when people do that while I'm transitioning.
I don't think I should start this because once I do there's no going back. I think I'd rather wait the 18 months to two years my counselor said I'm going to have to wait before I have T.
