Quote from: Anisha on March 16, 2025, 07:59:37 PM
Does transexual purge???or only crossdressers purge?
With Regards,
Anisha
I've only done it once and that once was quite the conflicted desire. Regardless, that once was a very expensive once. Much like bein' a girl, wanting to be a girl is very expensive. I'll mention a few items and stop when it becomes something painful: I tossed (purged) A very expensive (arguablly the best you can get) wig, a crazy-dollar amount in cosmetics, another crazy-dollar amount in dresses and accessories (yep, you guessed it, my dumbass was makin' $1200 a week at the time and thought I could buy, not only high-dollar cosmetics n' designer girly clothes, but order Italian Hosiery as well). Betcha could accurately guess the type of girl I'd be, huh? Anyway, Let me type, as diplomatically as I can muster, That I don't think a cross-dresser is as likely to purge as a True TS Person. My elucidation is this: Cross-dresser's are comfy with bein' part-time and fragmenting that facet of their lives-so I would theorize. TS People on the other hand, often feel conflicted stemming from what could be either a specific (single) or number of things. In my case, there were a couple of major factors. First, I had a niece n' nephew, both under 5 at the time, that I had grown to love dearly and feared their loss that would likely result from my "coming out". I'd like to add, no one whomsoever knew about me at the time which is another pertinent aspect to consider be it in my case or anyone else's. Support from others carries a great deal of weight. Second, I felt locked occupation wise at the time (much like I kinda do now) in that I was baffled/scared in thought of how I could make the same, or even near kinda money. Granted, for those of you thinking such anyway, I didn't necessarily hafta purge if I were reluctant to come out at the time. Correct, if you were thinking somethin' like. But I'm the kinda person that is far more considerate than they tend to give themselves credit for. I discovered this in almost staggering effect when I came out to those I have. Example: Danielle, who is a wonderful and understanding/accepting lady, claims she doesn't care that I dress to desire in the house when or not she's present. This is a very warm n' kind privilege or so I consider. But sometimes she will radiate, or so I feel, feeling that she's kinda uncomfortable with it. When this feeling comes over me, I stop dressing comfy for a while till I feel she's ready to see it again. See, this compels me to touch on a not-so happy subject about one of my first TS Friends. She was embarking upon transition to become female and not only had adequate financial backing, but was well built (bone n' skin-wise) to support what I'm sure would make a very convincing/passable girl. Fastfowarding, her and I were talking over the phone one day when the subject of "coming out" surfaced. She went on to tell me that people like us were actually very selfish people. When I questioned her position she explained how she feels that telling someone (family/friends, etc.) about our position is a "half-ass" Suicide. According to her, when we come out to someone, we more or less die to that person to one degree or another. I must admit, this intrigued me and I did devote quite a bit of thought to it. Hell, sometimes I still do. Anyway, Back to my base point B4 the Mandi reference: I think being considerate of those meaningful around you/us can serve to fuel a conflicting desire to put your/my happiness aside for their benefit. That was not only my primary concern then, but to a mentionable degree still is. I, much like many of my sisters like yourselves (m2f), tend to think with my heart. But that's who we are: We're girls-and such is just part of the program, like it or no. In attempt at summary, don't beat yourself up if you've ever done the purging thingee. I learned a great deal from it and so can you.
