I never liked guns, except for the short phase where I went through thinking my guy bodies would think I was more like I was more one of them if I kept a few of them around the house. I was pretty good with a gun, especially this Centennial hex barrel 30-30 caliber Winchester lever action. I became pretty adept at shooting at targets in this sand pit behind the family homestead.
But when it came to shooting at a live animal, and I indeed shoot this doe during hunting season with the guys one time. I knew immediately I had made a terrible error. I became acutely aware that I never wanted to experience killing anything ever again. that experience from all those years ago still brings tears for my eyes. I love the little critters to much to ever even harm them in anyway. They come to me sometimes, just to sit and look up at me. How could anyone hurt anything with such innocents in their eyes.
I don't own guns and will not have them around the house. Except maybe a small caliber hand gun for protection, if so I will certainly never use it even if my life depends on. I am a healer, not a killer. If I did use such a weapon against anyone it would be only if my life or my mates life was at stake. My sister was a better at hunting small game then I ever was when we were kids.
I cant get the guy stuff behind me fast enough, I don't even remember who I was, and the person in the mirror certainly don't any longer look anything like the other spirit that use to inhabit this body. It just was never meant to be. But then there was a time I was a hot rod enthusiast, I had one I named the mean green machine. There weren't that many girls back in the 60's and 70's that I knew that were hot rod enthusiasts, except maybe to ride in one.
My sister certainly did, and she was also a speed boat nut case, she nearly ran over me with the darn thing. Lucky I was a good swimmer back then or I could have got half the top of my head taken off by the propeller. But I believe it wasn't until the 80's that brought out a few brave girls who took an interest in race cars in the 80's I guess I just finished writing a small novel here I believe I need to git.
Cindy