Well.... at the end of my week of hell I found the light at the end of the tunnel....
I found a new theripist and she rocks.... should have gone to her in the first place. Shes 3 times more expensive than my old theripist but gives 10 times the results

Because I had allready come out to my friends and family and had started transition once before I got my new refferal on the first visit. Now the hard part is going to be finding a Physician to get me a new RX and monitor my progress... My theripist reaffirmed that going to an endo here localy was a waste of time and money...
Unfortunatly the MD she recomended is retireing and not takeing any new patents and the MD that used to be the family DR is also overbooked and not seeing anyone new for a few months.....
*Shrugs*
Still everythng seems like its going to be okay