nothing is easy.

http://codexbleu.wordpress.com/2008/09/13/nothing-is-easy/
9/13/2008

i get so frustrated with this whole transition. i mean, im happy that i have gotten as far as i have. i would probably be dead already if i hadnt already taken the steps i did. its just...i feel like im having to start over. i moved to this country at the absolute wrong time in my life. but if i hadnt moved when i did then i would still be in america, struggling to make ends meet, wishing i could die just so all the problems would go away. now i am here in the middle of my physical transition and i dont know which way to go. even the natives have a long process of diagnosis and waiting and here i am, a foreigner, who has gone down a different transitional path than what the rules are here.

*sighs* I can certainly understand why so many people move to foreign countries; they want to full-fill a dream; however if they are not a citizen or a legal resident of such country, life is going to turn into a total hell.  I see it every day here in California.  Many, many, many folks come to the U.S., the land of the free, without the necessary documentation to find a job, access medical care and enroll in schools.  And now with the Real ID Act going into effect next year (in California), well, things are going to get more chaotic for them!

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