I know I want to look male, that looking like a girl feels wrong. At the same time I'm worried that T would make me look too masculine, which wouldn't be right for me either. Looking male without a doubt, but still rather androgynous (not especially feminine though) would be ideal for me, and I suppose that's the internal image I have of myself.

There are guys I see that I am envious of for their looks, but also ones I see and really don't want to look like. I don't want to have that rugged appearance with rough features, but I do want to look like a guy, just not very masculine and I'm worried that T would turn me into that. My dad has pretty feminine facial features, as do my brothers, so maybe I'm just worrying about nothing.

Anyone here ever felt this way?

you can take low doses of T.

Well stuff like facial features can't be controlled. I think you could achieve the look you want by what clothes you wear and how you style your hair.

I want to look all male. I might, however, do hair removal after. It depends on how hairy I get. Looking at my brother, I won't be very hairy until I'm 25 or so.

your actual facial features don't really change.  your jawline becomes more prominent and your head squares up a bit, but your eyes/nose/mouth don't change. 

Yeah, I know I look different now, but it's nowhere near as much as I feared I might. From what I've seen of guys' pics before and after T, there's not that big a change. You still look like yourself, just masculinized. And I think you can definitely judge your results on T by how your father and brothers look... I feel like I look more and more like my 18-year-old little brother each day.

SD

Quote from: J.T. on September 20, 2008, 06:19:12 PM
you can take low doses of T.

I might dp tkat.

Quote from: Adam on September 20, 2008, 07:08:31 PM
Well stuff like facial features can't be controlled.

I know they can't, but it sure would be nice if they could eh?

Quote from: Sebastien on September 20, 2008, 07:50:04 PM
Yeah, I know I look different now, but it's nowhere near as much as I feared I might. From what I've seen of guys' pics before and after T, there's not that big a change. You still look like yourself, just masculinized. And I think you can definitely judge your results on T by how your father and brothers look... I feel like I look more and more like my 18-year-old little brother each day.

I suppose that's true. I already look a lot like my brother, just a lot more feminine. And my brothers and dad especially don't look all that masculine, so as I said before I'm probably worrying about nothing.

i feel that way too. i don't want to change so much that i see somebody else in my mirror.

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Quote from: Nero on September 21, 2008, 08:55:18 AM
i feel that way too. i don't want to change so much that i see somebody else in my mirror.

Yeh, same here.  Granted, when I was younger (8-12ish) I used to spend a fair bit of time looking at my face in the mirror, really close up, trying to figure out where *I* was in that reflection.  Only thing I saw that I recognized were my eyes.  I'm not sure if that is at all related to trans-anything though; could've just been me being weird.  But I will get a kick out of it if I start to feel more connected to my reflection when I'm on T.

On a side note, I was looking at my shadow on the ground the other day and thinking 'my god, the silhouette of my head looks like my dads.'  I've got big ears that stick out and all; I got 'em from him, but never really noticed 'til I cut my hair 

Quote from: Eryk on September 21, 2008, 10:15:14 AM
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Quote from: Nero on September 21, 2008, 08:55:18 AM
i feel that way too. i don't want to change so much that i see somebody else in my mirror.

Yeh, same here.  Granted, when I was younger (8-12ish) I used to spend a fair bit of time looking at my face in the mirror, really close up, trying to figure out where *I* was in that reflection.  Only thing I saw that I recognized were my eyes.  I'm not sure if that is at all related to trans-anything though; could've just been me being weird.  But I will get a kick out of it if I start to feel more connected to my reflection when I'm on T.0

Same experience here!

Quote from: Nero on September 21, 2008, 08:55:18 AM
i feel that way too. i don't want to change so much that i see somebody else in my mirror.

Yeah, though at the same time I already see a stranger in the mirror as it is. I know it's supposed to be me, but I can't see it. It just looks like this weird girl I don't even know.

Quote from: Mister on September 20, 2008, 07:47:04 PMyour actual facial features don't really change.  your jawline becomes more prominent and your head squares up a bit, but your eyes/nose/mouth don't change.

I've seen an overall change. Like in how the fat on the face looks, so the general shape of the face changes a little... And I've also seen nose changes.

I definitely like the image I see in the mirror now... whereas before T, I just looked in the mirror and wondered how I'd ever be seen as a guy. I always hated the way I looked, but now I actually have some confidence in my appearance.

SD

Quote from: Sebastien on September 21, 2008, 03:49:33 PM
I definitely like the image I see in the mirror now... whereas before T, I just looked in the mirror and wondered how I'd ever be seen as a guy. I always hated the way I looked, but now I actually have some confidence in my appearance.

SD

Ditto.  I'm not 100% where I want to be, but I can see some changes starting.  Some of it has to be due to the weight loss, some is from my increased confidence.  I like my looks better as male than female.  Now if I could just grow some facial hair... Patience was never my strong suit.

Jay

Quote from: sneakersjay on September 21, 2008, 04:10:34 PM

Quote from: Sebastien on September 21, 2008, 03:49:33 PM
I definitely like the image I see in the mirror now... whereas before T, I just looked in the mirror and wondered how I'd ever be seen as a guy. I always hated the way I looked, but now I actually have some confidence in my appearance.

SD

Ditto.  I'm not 100% where I want to be, but I can see some changes starting.  Some of it has to be due to the weight loss, some is from my increased confidence.  I like my looks better as male than female.  Now if I could just grow some facial hair... Patience was never my strong suit.

Jay

Double ditto. I'm way better looking as a man than I ever was as a woman. I've had fairly dramatic changes to my face, largely fat redistribution, skin texture, facial hair, and possibly muscle development. People who knew me before don't recognize me, but think there's something familiar about me.

Dennis

Quote from: Adam on September 20, 2008, 07:08:31 PM
Well stuff like facial features can't be controlled. I think you could achieve the look you want by what clothes you wear and how you style your hair.

That is very true!

I am liking my facial features much much more now. However people say that I was a gorgeous girl.. but they dont say much about me now.. guess I could only have  it one way.. but hey heck to the looks! Im a man!