Hey all,

    Went yesterday to the internal medicine guy for blood work and kind of a check up, and EKG. The results will be in by tomarrow, but I have to wait until Monday the 19th for my first shot. Fist off, none of what was done yesterday is covered by insurance. That sucked. I was nearly naked for the physical. I don't recall that 18 years ago. Maybe things have changed now before you get going. Anyway, I feel like I should be more excited about next Monday, but I am just so damn stressed. I have not workde for 2 months now, and I feel as though I am in limbo. I have to wait for my SS card and licence to come in the mail if I want a job different than the one I just had. They will take me back knowing all that is going on with me, but it will be a swing shift more than likely.I can;t start a different job now even when I get my licence because my surgery is coming up too quick to say "hey I need 4 weeks off in August". Pam is helping me pay for all my crap, and I feel so bad about that. Plus, come to think of it, the marker on the licence can not change until top surgery is done. So I will have a licence with Marco on it with an F until September. Had to get one now since my name has been changed and you have to match when you fly ofcourse. We are flying to San Francisco for my surgery. It was cheaper than driving. I think my only choice right now is to try to go back to where I was working and take what I can get since they know everything. I can't keep not working. It drives me nuts. I don't do well without money. Alot of it is that Pam is doing way more than she should, or even can for me. How did I get so lucky with getting her?

                                                  Marco

Pam, A true woman!

it's always easier when you have a SO there for ya.
when I first transitioned I prepared myself for the possibility of working at McDonald's On fries "sort of speak" simple for choosing to be me so I know what your feeling baby boy (oops, sorry Pam Bro! )
I wish you the best of luck Marco in whatever endevour you decide upon.

Wondering why there isn't a T on my license
Chynna

Quote from: Marco on June 13, 2006, 03:52:05 PM
So I will have a licence with Marco on it with an F until September.

I'd trade you gender markers if I could Marco.

Melissa

It really sucks being caught in the middle like that, but I think that you are doing the right thing as far as trying to go back where you were working before.  Cash is cash and without it you ain't goin anywhere baby, but now I'm preaching to the choir.  We are so lucky to have partners who will support us and they should be cherished as they are obviously doing it out of love, and you have a very special one there Marco.

Try not to get too down on yourself look forward to Monday and see what transpires.

Steph

Thank you everyone for your nice comments about me.  I know that Marco is really stressed right now.  Not only with the money issue, but there are passing issues too.  I feel so helpless.  I just wish there was something I could do to take the stress away!  I love him so much, I just can't stand to see him stressing so much.  Then there's my issues to just add to his stress.  We end up at each others' throats because of our stress levels.  I know when we make it through Marco's transition and my divorce, we will have to have close to the strongest relationship in the world!!  We just need to keep plugging away for each other!

I love you Marco!!! 
Pam

Just keep doing what you are doing Pam, that's all anyone could ask for

Steph

Thanks to all of you for your support. Some days this place, with you people is the only way to get through. I konw I just have to keep looking ahead. The distance is not that far off. I am just a very impatient person.

                                              Marco