I know i'm posting a lot today - just boredom and impatient about the 7th i guess.

But... i know i've been in this 20 months already... but i feel like my journey is only just beginning. And... with this realisation, i'm feeling kinda scared. It's not a 'i want out now' scared, it's an 'excited, i cant wait to see how things go, but wish someone was there to hold my hand' scared.

Just sat watching a few vids on youtube about FTM's vlogs from T to bottom surgery.

I'm realising i'm about to experience one of the most amazing journey's only a selection of lucky humans get to experience. It makes me feel proud to be trans, it makes me feel special to be one of the select few to experience this.

And all that is way way ahead of me... and i'm still here, still waiting for my first appointment with the endo. Still packing my bag so to speak.

I personally don't feel very special... I just want to be a normal guy.

most days i dont feel special either.

But today i do.

Just embracing it while it lasts as i know it wont last very long at all.

see, you are better than cloud. He gets whiny!

Quote from: Elwood on September 28, 2008, 10:58:39 AM
I personally don't feel very special... I just want to be a normal guy.

I feel like that too however, I do feel special that I am able to change to be me..