Thank you so much everyone, I'm feeling wonderful and I've just been here at my dad's resting these last few days. The op went as planned with no complications, I've had very little pain but they have me on pain killers (which make me sleepy and feel nice
). This morning was my first real shower in three days and it was
wonderful, I truly feel like a new woman and I have no regrets at all! I've really been reborn!
Now the nitty gritty I suppose.
The op was on Tuesday morning. I came down from school and stayed with my dad last weekend. He's been very supportive of this and has even slowly started calling me Jenn and using the proper female pronouns. His girlfriend is wonderful too, she was joking with him the other night about how men think with their *hmmm's* and goes "Jenn, aren't you glad you're female now and don't have to deal with those 'things'?"
I beamed! I says "Yes!" and couldn't have been happier.
Anyway, Tuesday morning dad drove me down to the outpatient facility where the op was performed. After signing some papers I had to wait in the lobby for about 30 mins. I was very nervous but took lots of deep breathes to stay calm. A nurse came out shortly after and took me back to change into a hairnet and a gown and socks. She let me use the female changing room without any hesitation too, which made me very happy. After changing and assuring myself, I came out into the pre-op area and she had me lay down on one of the beds. I was the only one there except for an older gentleman who was behind a privacy curtain. I signed some more papers and the nurse started my IV. I told her that I'm very frightened by needles and she talked me through it, asked me about school, etc. and kept me talking. I didn't cry or resist (which I thought I might), and it was over before I knew it. She gave me a cold compress and adjusted the bed so I was completely flat. I felt fine after a little bit and they brought my dad in to sit with me. He looked concerned but I assured him I was ok and this is what I wanted.
I waited for another hour and signed some more papers regarding the op. There was a little boy in another room and we could hear him screaming, I felt bad for him and told the nurse; she agreed. The doctor arrived and asked if I had any questions, and then the anestesiologist came in and I signed his papers and they started me on antibiotics and gave me the anestesia. Before they wheeled me into the operating room I squeezed dad's hand and told him I loved him and I'd see him later. They wheeled me into the op room and I was looking at the lights on the ceiling when...LIGHTS OUT.
Next thing I knew, I was in the recovery room and had lost about 90 minutes. I was very groggy and a little sore but the nurse told me where I was and that I was ok and the op was over. She gave me some crackers and ginger ale and took the IV out. Dad came in shortly after and sat with me, he had talked to the doctor in the parking lot as he was coming back from getting coffee and a snack. He told dad that the op went very well without any problems, but he had other patients to see back at his office and wished me and dad well. The nurse tried explaining the after care instructions to me but I was too out of it so she told dad and he signed the paper for me. I had to correct the nurses a few times when they said 'he' and I said 'she' and they apologized.
After a little bit of laying there, I felt well enough to go so the nurse closed a privacy curtain and helped me get my clothes on. Thank the Lady for athletic pants! I didn't have anything else that I thought would be comfortable so I wore those and I'm glad I did. When I was decent she and dad helped me to the car and dad drove me home.
Both the nurse and the doctor have been calling to make sure I'm alright. I've had very little pain and I've been resting, as I said. Had a little bit of drainage which, oddly enough makes me happy because it feels like my first (and unfortunately only) period. I've been wearing maxi pads to handle the drainage. Part of me will miss it, which may or may not sound strange to you but *shrugs*
I feel great, this was by far the best decision I've ever made, I have no regrets and it was totally worth it. I'm heading back to school on Sunday and I should be fully healed in a few weeks. Then I'm going to Victoria's Secret because ladies, I deserve some sexy lingerie after all this. I think I earned it.
Jenn
