MTF's...Have you ever fallen romantically in love with a male, a female or both?

misty xxx

I voted both... I did not admit or accept it at the time but now I realize I did fall in love
with a guy when I was younger.

Amanda

Yes.

Nikki

yep and i married her 



Warrior Princess Mickie

I fell in love with my high school best friend when we were fifteen. I'm still in love with the memory of him god he was cute *shiver*. later, I fell in love with another male best friend, but I never had the courage to say so. Of course there is my wife whom I dearly love even though she denies that I do.

All of my romantic fallings-in-love have been with women. Only women can mean that much to my heart. I sometimes lust after men merely because I desire their cocks in me. But I cannot work up any emotional devotion to them the way I can toward women. I just care about their cocks but not about their hearts. I am a woman who in order to find fulfillment in sex needs to give herself heart and soul to my beloved. I feel it would dehumanize and objectify men to see them as nothing but cocks. I would not feel right just having sex with a man without truly caring for him as a whole person. And since I can't find it within me to bond emotionally with men in that way, I feel it's best to forgo them altogether and just devote myself to lesbian relationships.

And of course lesbians can use strap-ons, so it isn't like I'm really losing out on anything.

Quote from: Hypatia on October 21, 2008, 09:41:38 PM
I sometimes lust after men merely because I desire their cocks in me.

Haha a gal after my own heart. I feel that way a lot too, however I do fall for some of their hearts too. 

Yea both.  My ex wife. When we were good, we were great.  But when we were bad, my world ended.

And a guy at work, I have mentioned him before.  Mark, but that is just something that may never be.

Is love feeling withdrawal when the person in question isn't there? Or feeling misery when you can't see them?


Or is that cause Im a lonely idiot whos love is a red herring?

Quote from: deviousxen on October 21, 2008, 10:21:03 PM
Is love feeling withdrawal when the person in question isn't there? Or feeling misery when you can't see them?

Not necessarily. I still feel that way about my mother. Total mama's boy here. 

What else do feel about this person you may or may not love?

Really being in love means... every time I see an attractive woman, instead of thinking damn I feel a lack, I'm missing out because that honey isn't in my life... rather, I feel already fulfilled because my lover is there for me.

I have only felt this level of fulfillment twice in my whole life. When it happens, that's how I know it's true love. When every other attractive woman only brings my thoughts immediately back to my beloved and how fulfilled and grateful I feel because of her. There is room for only her in my heart, she's all I need, she's all I want.

Both.

I have only really been in love 3 times. At 14 it was a boy. At 40 it was a girl (wasn't intended, just fell on us like a ton of bricks!). And now, a guy again. So I guess I am 66% straight and 33% Lesbian.

In terms of attraction and "physical lust" I am 90% straight.

very much in love with my fella atm. My first love, and my one true love

Quote from: Nero on October 21, 2008, 10:42:43 PM

Quote from: deviousxen on October 21, 2008, 10:21:03 PM
Is love feeling withdrawal when the person in question isn't there? Or feeling misery when you can't see them?

Not necessarily. I still feel that way about my mother. Total mama's boy here. 

What else do feel about this person you may or may not love?

Well its hard to tell now because I'm so depressed and anxiety ridden that I'm probably insane and need help right now...

But before I had this great connection. I'm not entirely sure of it anymore cause I never see them in person cause they're busy, but I'd feel totally recharged after seeing them.. Like everything would be ok for once. I never feel like that just from hanging out with someone. Then it just started getting terrible cause I'd leave and smile and say goodbye when I was leaving some social event, and then I'd instantly feel miserable driving or walking home... She'd recharge me I guess. I love her strong will and talent also. Any work she does fuels me for just a while because I actually see artwork being done with enjoyment as the outcome, versus me who sits staring at the page. I'm intimidated by what I used to love and do easily.

I don't know. I still know that if something happened to them, I'd lose it even more than I already have. I'm trying to get help but good luck to me to get any shrink would prescribe in a month, and then get the antidepressants or whatever that actually worked. The least amount of time for me would be 2 months to get that to work, and I'm so afraid of what I'll be like at that point...

Quote from: deviousxen on October 22, 2008, 08:29:10 AM

Quote from: Nero on October 21, 2008, 10:42:43 PM

Quote from: deviousxen on October 21, 2008, 10:21:03 PM
Is love feeling withdrawal when the person in question isn't there? Or feeling misery when you can't see them?

Not necessarily. I still feel that way about my mother. Total mama's boy here. 

What else do feel about this person you may or may not love?

Well its hard to tell now because I'm so depressed and anxiety ridden that I'm probably insane and need help right now...

But before I had this great connection. I'm not entirely sure of it anymore cause I never see them in person cause they're busy, but I'd feel totally recharged after seeing them.. Like everything would be ok for once. I never feel like that just from hanging out with someone. Then it just started getting terrible cause I'd leave and smile and say goodbye when I was leaving some social event, and then I'd instantly feel miserable driving or walking home... She'd recharge me I guess. I love her strong will and talent also. Any work she does fuels me for just a while because I actually see artwork being done with enjoyment as the outcome, versus me who sits staring at the page. I'm intimidated by what I used to love and do easily.

I don't know. I still know that if something happened to them, I'd lose it even more than I already have. I'm trying to get help but good luck to me to get any shrink would prescribe in a month, and then get the antidepressants or whatever that actually worked. The least amount of time for me would be 2 months to get that to work, and I'm so afraid of what I'll be like at that point...

Do they reciprocate?

I've been really in love only once, with a woman.  but I've had some wonderful romantic relationships in my life; some women, some men.  If I have my druthers then I'd like to be in a monogamous healthy relationship with a man.

     deviousxen, sounds like you are in a rotten place.  If you are in crisis, you might consider the ER of your local Catholic Hospital; I had excellent experiences with the Catholic hospitals, both in Alaska and Washington.  They were kind, respectful, and put me on the road out of self harm and suicide attempts.  Of course your milage may vary.
Hugs and good luck to you,
-Bri 

Quote from: Nero on October 22, 2008, 08:41:51 AM

Quote from: deviousxen on October 22, 2008, 08:29:10 AM

Quote from: Nero on October 21, 2008, 10:42:43 PM

Quote from: deviousxen on October 21, 2008, 10:21:03 PM
Is love feeling withdrawal when the person in question isn't there? Or feeling misery when you can't see them?

Not necessarily. I still feel that way about my mother. Total mama's boy here. 

What else do feel about this person you may or may not love?

Well its hard to tell now because I'm so depressed and anxiety ridden that I'm probably insane and need help right now...

But before I had this great connection. I'm not entirely sure of it anymore cause I never see them in person cause they're busy, but I'd feel totally recharged after seeing them.. Like everything would be ok for once. I never feel like that just from hanging out with someone. Then it just started getting terrible cause I'd leave and smile and say goodbye when I was leaving some social event, and then I'd instantly feel miserable driving or walking home... She'd recharge me I guess. I love her strong will and talent also. Any work she does fuels me for just a while because I actually see artwork being done with enjoyment as the outcome, versus me who sits staring at the page. I'm intimidated by what I used to love and do easily.

I don't know. I still know that if something happened to them, I'd lose it even more than I already have. I'm trying to get help but good luck to me to get any shrink would prescribe in a month, and then get the antidepressants or whatever that actually worked. The least amount of time for me would be 2 months to get that to work, and I'm so afraid of what I'll be like at that point...

Do they reciprocate?

PM me and I'll tell you the magical tale... I'd rather not the whole internet see this...


And TRUST me, the last thing I need is a bible next to my bedside or padded room or whatever the hell they do to nutters these days... Maybe if it were a goth dance club ER? Or a, "Stay up all night watching geeky movies with friends and a blanket and drinking sake," ER....

I need friends, and help, and a fair chance to have a future if I try. You know... Basic stuff. Maybe my cat, Fireball, who I miss dearly...

Grrr

both but i'm marrying a man in a few days.

Yes Both,

I can see myself waking up to the loving comfort a man offers.
I can also see waking up next to a beautiful sweetheart.

As long as they will love me for who I am.

Yes, a female.

Ex-girlfriend. Even though it prolonged my time as a male, I do not regret loving her. I still love her, just as a close friend now.