before we know ourselves.  problem is, he don't yell.  He just calmly and persistently says it over and over again in such simple language we genius mortals often just overlook the simple truth.

God says, "don't argue with those who aren't interested in what you are arguing for."  ok, that makes perfect sense, were i anything like smart enough to pick up on what God says the first time i'd get it and move on.  problem is, i'm stubborn and i'm arrogant.  i think <in all my mortal brillance> that i know better, i can do better...i can make this thing work!  i'm dealing with God though.  He doesn't just laugh and say "ok, silly...you'll find out!" and then go away and let me fail on my own.  no, God gives me all the help He can.  He guides me to make the best argument i can, to be as brilliant as my little brain can be, He helps me eventhough He knows what's going to happen.  He loves me, He doesn't want me to fail...He wants me to succeed.  He isn't indifferent or arrogant Himself, He can't be insulted by any of my puny little opinions.  He never looks down on me, He lifts me up in whatever i want to do, even when He knows i'm headed in the wrong direction He will pick up my load and carry it for me when i'm weak.  and all the time He will be whispering in my ear..."I am here, I will lead or I will follow...I love you and wherever you go I will be with you."  God is awesome, He is love and He is hope.

Pennyjane,

Not too long ago I felt God, my wife, my children, and myself hated me.  My wife made a profound statement.  She said that she loved me and God loved me.  That did seem true.  I am not a bad person.  I am just different and have a lot of issues.

My wife told me that she prayed every night to God that I would come back and I did.  She said God answered her prayer in a strange way but I came back.

Things sure can be strange.  But if my wife could love me and she is mortal, then why would God, whose love is boundless, not love me when I am one of his children and I love God?

K

There have been times when I have been furious with the Almighty.  Once I was done venting my spleen, He would open his arms, hug me and say that it was going to be alright. 

Strange, but I don't recall being angry with God for creating me as transsexual.  Through this entire journey, I have never felt abandoned.  Quite the opposite, actually.  I have felt God's radiant smile as I became the person He created me to be.

Nowadays, I can hear His voice saying, "There's a job that needs to be done, and you are the best person for it.  It's work, but I know you will enjoy it.  Don't worry, I will walk you through it.  Up for a challenge?"

Though He gives me the choice, how can I say no?  I know that God's love and wisdom will guide me.

again, as God says, don't argue with those who aren't interested in your agrument.  i learn the lesson anew.  thank you God, and thank you those who aren't interested...may He bless us all with.....