i got the "looking a decade younger" thing too. i'm not on T at all, but a lot of my body and face looks boyish. boyish, not mannish.

which results in things like: me on airplane. lady next to me "well, hello! is this your first time flying alone?" me "Um...I'm 31." lady "you've flown thirty one times? you must be a busy young man."  or lifting my luggage. "whoa...strong little dude!"

people say i should be thankful for looking younger but
a) i get talked to in a patronizing way, or people assume i don't know how to handle anything

b)  OR sometimes people are very nice and sweet and i can tell they are impressed that a young person is  so independent and smart.  and then i feel  bad about that, like i fooled them, or, inside, i think "well, i'm a lot older than they think and not special at all"


an interesting bonus is i get lots of free food all the time from older people who think i'm a growing young boy. (or they may know i'm a girl, but i swear i inspire that feeling...no one gives loads of food to 30 year old feminine women, right? or am i imagining that?) i could probably go 2 weeks without groceries.


sorry guys, i am wordy online. i don't get to talk about that stuff much i guess! 

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can't gain muscle mass (enough)  no matter how much I work out
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Quote from: Shades O'Grey on November 20, 2008, 07:57:57 PM

Quote from: Nero on November 20, 2008, 07:07:45 AM
In response to Goldy's thread about being a bioguy. Thought we should have our own.

Me - tits.

My soon to be 17-year-old daughter has said pretty much the same thing. But, that's about the extent of what she's mentioned thus far. I don't know how dysphoric she is in that regard. But she's mentioned numerous times she'd like to be rid of her breasts.

Who knows; I might have a TG daughter, though it still seems too early to tell.

I was discussing this thread with my daughter. While she reiterated her antipathy towards her breasts, she insists that SRS is "never gonna happen." So, it seems she has mild dysphoria but no TG/TS leanings.

It would definitely be the parts down below. and since my poison (birth control) hasn't been working, i get bleeding and pms symptoms almost every day, all the time. and the unexpected surprises i find in my underwear. 
it's getting to the point where i'm getting extremely angry - hitting, throwing things, when it bleeds, cause it's not supposed to happen for one. at least with normal periods I know when the crap comes.
i fantasize about carving it all out with a knife, and doing all sorts of violent acts on it when it's out of me... using every kind of weapon on it, putting it thru a shredder, burning it, etc..
I have some nice nicknames for it.. slag, stabwound, piece of ->-bleeped-<-.. I truly despise it, it is my worst enemy. it must be destroyed!!!!
yeah i know i have some major emotional problems... i blame the twat.

I hate my hands too, Jay... they are ridiculously, and distinctly feminine.. oh well better than havin sausage fingers imo

yes i hate my chest too but since it can't even fit in an A cup, they arent a huge problem.. dont even really need a binder if i wear layers.
I hate how it's so feminine tho, i hate how women's nipples are so big and pointy.. 

and i just hate the shape of my body.. it looks so fat and girly even tho I'm a normal weight.. i guess that's what you get when youre a woman.. fat...sigh..

sorry long post, need to vent

Quote from: northy on November 23, 2008, 02:28:09 AM

and i just hate the shape of my body.. it looks so fat and girly even tho I'm a normal weight.. i guess that's what you get when youre a woman.. fat...sigh..

I know what you mean. Before I realized what my problem was (TS), I was so freaked out by being "fat" that I would go for days without eating and all that ED crap... Then I realized I was a boy, started binding, and the feelings went away. Damn tits are the only things that make me feel fat anymore. Fat and gross. Ugh.

The Moobs, the period, pms, the loss of control over emotions every month, lack of penis, no beard, and the times my voice goes high or feminingly soft.

Oh and one more other thing I hate about being a bio girl. Being treated like a girl from your family members and friends. I came out to my friends and my mom and they act as though I never said anything

My hated things:

1. The bloody waterfall of doom.
2. The problems that occur around the time of the bloody waterfall of doom.
3. The opening where the bloody waterfall of doom falls from.
4. The organs from which the bloody waterfall of doom is produced.
5. The wide hips made for baby-harvesting that will not likely occur, resulting in my messed up knees (the hips widened at a fast rate and the alignment of my kneecaps is now off).
6. The hill-like flabby bits on the upper-body that don't seem to be related to the bloody waterfall of doom.
7. The voice that is also seemingly unrelated to the bloody waterfall of doom.
8. The inability to freak other guys out with urinal-to-urinal conversations. (Can't pee standing and can't enter the boys' bathroom.)
9. Upper-body underwear.
10. The general idea.

The way people treat me. I could deal with the physical aspects, but what always makes my dysphoria spike is being treated like a girl.

boobs. yuk.

I have a VERY feminine body. I have 36DD boobs, I'm curvy, short, and "cute"

I hate getting hit on by men all the time who seem to be fascinated by the two lumps of gross on my chest. Especially considering I prefer to hang out with guys, I think I've got just a buddy and it turns out they want to sleep with me. - This is definitely what depresses me the most. I just wanna be one of the guys =(

Quote from: Dawni on November 27, 2008, 08:24:07 AM
I have a VERY feminine body. I have 36DD boobs, I'm curvy, short, and "cute"

I hate getting hit on by men all the time who seem to be fascinated by the two lumps of gross on my chest. Especially considering I prefer to hang out with guys, I think I've got just a buddy and it turns out they want to sleep with me. - This is definitely what depresses me the most. I just wanna be one of the guys =(

I hear ya man..I just wanna be one of the guys too and I have the same femenine body thing. It sucks when you can't do much about it

Quote from: freespeechz on November 21, 2008, 07:00:23 PM
The lumps of doom and the parentals' refusal to let me get my hair cut. That's literally all that's keeping me from passing. Well the boobage can be dealt with, but the hair is the only thing that keeps me looking iffy.

break out the scissors, nothing they can do about it then!

Quote from: Godot on November 27, 2008, 01:14:47 PM

Quote from: Dawni on November 27, 2008, 08:24:07 AM
I have a VERY feminine body. I have 36DD boobs, I'm curvy, short, and "cute"

I hate getting hit on by men all the time who seem to be fascinated by the two lumps of gross on my chest. Especially considering I prefer to hang out with guys, I think I've got just a buddy and it turns out they want to sleep with me. - This is definitely what depresses me the most. I just wanna be one of the guys =(

I hear ya man..I just wanna be one of the guys too and I have the same femenine body thing. It sucks when you can't do much about it

Same here.  It sucks.  I try to hide it with the types of cloths I wear and such but seems I still get clocked half the time.  Binding chest presses breasts down but they go to far down torso to be taken as pecks.  Loose shirt that comes over the top of the pants hide hips some but only so much.

Quote from: Aiden on November 27, 2008, 03:02:32 PM

Quote from: Godot on November 27, 2008, 01:14:47 PM

Quote from: Dawni on November 27, 2008, 08:24:07 AM
I have a VERY feminine body. I have 36DD boobs, I'm curvy, short, and "cute"

I hate getting hit on by men all the time who seem to be fascinated by the two lumps of gross on my chest. Especially considering I prefer to hang out with guys, I think I've got just a buddy and it turns out they want to sleep with me. - This is definitely what depresses me the most. I just wanna be one of the guys =(

I hear ya man..I just wanna be one of the guys too and I have the same femenine body thing. It sucks when you can't do much about it

Same here.  It sucks.  I try to hide it with the types of cloths I wear and such but seems I still get clocked half the time.  Binding chest presses breasts down but they go to far down torso to be taken as pecks.  Loose shirt that comes over the top of the pants hide hips some but only so much.

I can't pass at all, even if I bind and wear baggy clothes, my face gives me away totally.

Probably doesn't help that I wear a lot of makeup

but even if I was a bio-guy I'd still wear a ton of eyeliner

Or guyliner as it were 

B4 top surgery. chest
B4 T. aunt flo

Hard to pick one thing out of the teetering pile, really, but often it's muscle strength.  That might sound odd, but I'd dearly love to be stronger and have more stamina.

Like others have said the breasts.  Also when my voice gets high pitched and overall being underestimated.