Hi.

Please forgive my english... Sometimes I don't find the words.
I'm from Chile, here we speak Spanish.

Em... Ok...

That's obviously not me. I'm a boy, 22 years old... I read yesterday about Crossdressing. I have something in me that I don't know what it is. I thought it was like a fetichism, or maybe I was a girl trapped. Anyway, this new term called my attention, it's similar to what happens to me.

I was looking for trannies pics (that excite me a bit) and I found a pic with a "man" saying he was a crossdresser. He explained a little and then I started looking other sites and pics.

Since I was like 6 or 7, it was really exciting looking at girls clothes. First I took a skirt from my big sisters clothes and went running to the bathroom and looked me at the mirror with the skirt. Then I runned back and put it where it was before. Nobody saw and I felt a way I never felt before. Something happened, I've discovered a part of me that was screaming to get out.

I started to search for different clothes all over my house and discovered that my mom kept non-season clothes in the bathroom, in boxes. It was really nice to look and combine clothes.

Three years ago, I haved a girlfriend that loved sharing her clothes, playing with my hair and make-up, taking me photos... That was the time when I really lose control about it. Then I started to buy clothes and make-up.

Now I'm not living in my house, cause I study in a University far away from home. I rent a house with 2 friends (girls) and since last year I've been buying clothes for me and I hide them from my friends and family. From my friends sometimes I took "borrowed" their shoes and boots.

Sometimes I pray... I want to wake up as a girl...
Sometimes I call martians to come and change my sex.
Sometimes I want to have a illness or sickness that makes me lose my penes.
Sometimes I want to buy hormones.

Ok.
That was an introduction of my story.
Thanks for reading it.
I will be participating here a lot.

Bye!

Hi Charlotte:
Your English looks fine  to me, but I'm gonna introduce myself in Spanish. (hope the other members don't mind)
Hola charlotte:  Bienvenida a los foros de Susan.  Aqui me dicen Tinkerbell, soy de California, pero mis papas son peruanos.  Vivi en Peru casi toda  mi ninez y parte de mi adolescencia.  Estoy muy segura de que te encantara tu aventura en estos foros; todos aqui son muy lindos, y trataremos lo mejor para que te sientas en familia.  Gracias por la introducion y bienvenida otra vez. 
Sinceramente,
Tinkerbell

Hello Charlotte.

Welcome to Susan's.  While your story is unique to you it is at the same time very similar to others here at Susan's, so you can relax in the knowledge that you are among friends.  Take your time to explore the site, and get to know the forums, Chat area, the Links section, and the Wiki.  Be sure to read the rules and if you are not sure of something don't be afraid to ask.

I'm sure that you will enjoy you stay here, make new friends, and share in experiences.  Don't be afraid to participate where you can (your English if much much better than my Spanish) as that's what Susan's is all about.

Chat later.

Steph

Thanks 

Maybe is the first time I share openly my experience... I talked of it before with a mexican messenger friend (he was gay), the girlfriend of the story and to an open mind bisexual friend.

It's difficult to share it with other people when you think they can leave you...

Thanks again for the welcome.

Bienvenida, Charlotte.  Mucho gusto en conocerle.  Puedo hablar el espanol bastante bien - vivi' dos anos en Espana - pero no puedo formar las letras espanoles come el n con tilde.

Robyn

Thanks Robyn.

I preffer to write in english so everybody can understand.

Pero muchas gracias igual, que agradable ver que hay gente de todos lados.

Nice site.

Hi there Charlotte:
So glad to know that you're finding your way around the site.  Yes, I know what you mean...it's always very difficult when you talk about your feelings for the very first time.  I remember my first day at "gender" therapy; I was more nervous than someone on death row.  I was sweating buckets literally...but you know... after a while things get easier; they really do...
regards,


tinkerbell

Hola, Charlotte!

I'm happy you found us and decided to post messages here.  Your story is similar to mine except when I was 22 there was no internet (there were no home computers either!) and I didn't learn admit who I really was until last year.  Coming to Susan's has helped me a great deal in dealing with that discovery.

I will be looking forward to reading more posts from you.  As far as my high school Spanish goes, this is what I use the most: Yo hablo muy poco español, so I'm grateful that they will be in English.

again, WELCOME ! ! 
helen

Hi again.

It's cool to share your story with people that have lived similar experiencies...

There are so many details and stories that I would like to share, in this days I'll be taking the time to write some of them.

Last night I discovered the forum, but it didn't accept my first registration. I started to read some stories and I felt like I was going to cry. To many years for all of us hidyng a big part of our lives of the rest of the people, people we love...

Not good.

Good site, one day and it's helping.

Hi Charlotte,
Yes it is not good hide part of yourself down deep inside.  For years I have been a expert in surpressed the real me and all of my feelings and fears. Why because of fear of other and how they would react to the real me. So I became what they wanted me to be. Finally last year I said the H*** with it. I am going to be and do what I want to do not what other want.
Welcome Charlotte. I'm glad to meet you.

Jillieann

Charlote:


bienvenida
sheila

I'm back...

Proyects, homework and "work" kept me far from this forum for some days.

Hey, I feel very comfortable here... Perhaps my introduction make bilinqual people start to write in spanish, jijijiji... Interesting.

Yep, I found better hiding places in my family house also.
Sometimes my mother found clothes, but she blamed my sister.
Anyway, I think my mother suspects... Sometimes.

I'm a little tired.
Nice to read you, I'm gonna take a look to other posts before I close my eyes.

See ya!


Posted at: July 02, 2006, 12:21:48 AM

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Mmmm...

How many posts I need to change my avatar and put a real pic?

I like that idea...

Welcome to Susans.  I'm way behind here.

Quote from: Charlotte on July 02, 2006, 01:23:14 AM
Mmmm...

How many posts I need to change my avatar and put a real pic?

I like that idea...

2 more.

Melissa

Posted at: July 26, 2006, 01:13:45 AM[/size]

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charlotte:
nice move blame it on sissy, eres una zorra niña [you're a fox baby] 
sheila18

Back...

University is taking most of my time... I'm finishing Psychology.

Well, thanks again for the welcome. Just reading some posts helped me live my life more naturally, but I still got fears and shame.

I don't want to leave this forum, but maybe I won't be arround here much.

Thanks, I'll keep visiting, maybe not writing but I'll be reading some posts.


Posted at: July 28, 2006, 12:38:46 AM

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Yeeesssss!!!

Finally I can have my green skirt pic!

Great!

Mmmm...

It's difficult for me to show my face.
Maybe I need more time.

I know my pic it's kind of "sexual" but it is very important for me that photo.

Maybe I'll show my face someday...

Quote from: Charlotte on July 28, 2006, 01:12:56 AM
Mmmm...

It's difficult for me to show my face.
Maybe I need more time.

I know my pic it's kind of "sexual" but it is very important for me that photo.

Maybe I'll show my face someday...

Hello Charlotte.

There is no requirement for you to post a picture of yourself here at Susan's.  Other's have, including myself, but we do that with full knowledge of the risks associated with doing so.  Please do not feel obligated to post a picture.

Steph

Quote from: tinkerbell on July 28, 2006, 12:53:25 AM
I mean...don't take me wrong...it is a lovely  skirt, (teal, turquoise...  help!!)

It looks mint green to me.

Melissa