Hi all, I'm Vicky. When I was born, the doctor told my mother and father I was a boy before he bothered to ask me. Now that I have outlived all three, maybe I can get the record straightened out and take time to be who I have really felt like for years.
I did the very bad look closet thing on crossdressing for about 10 years, hiding the stuff from the three very curious teenagers that I was raising as a single parent "dad". When they were finally out of the house for extended periods with school and first jobs, I had the chance to begin a better looking wardrobe and female presentation, as well as some time out of the house en-femme at spots like the old Queen Mary Show Lounge in the Hollywood area of LA. About six years ago, when I came out to two of my now adult children, it appears that I did not go a good job of locking the closet while I was raising them. They knew already, and while open on the idea at first, both of them told me. "but you are dad". Darn it, they do look like me!! Neither of them have seen more than a couple of pictures of Vicky, and that is their limit for the time being. My third now adult child is more open, and we have attended some social events as parent and offspring.
Ten years ago my youngest sister had mentioned that her clegyman spouse was beginning a church ministry for transgendered people. Six months later I found a link to their church web site, and found out that my up to then "brother-in-law" was transgendered too. Six months later, AFTER my first night out at an actual restaurant as Vicky, I came out to them and they helped me take my first girl pictures that I laugh at today because I was still making all the mistakes I had before, and was inventing new ones all the time.
They suggested a store that was gender friendly, where I could get help with my image (and that is listed in this site's resource list for crossdressers now) and found out that the owner of the store insisted that her MtF transgender clients look real and classy as females. That experience has set my standards for presenting as a female, and the store owner is now one of my very good friends. There are about 30 or so of us that know each other through being store patron, and we are at all stages of being trans, from people who are transitioning, who have completed SRS, who will never go through transition, etc.
I have been finding out over the past three years, that while I originally thought that Crossdressing would take care of my gender issues, I was wrong, and I am getting ready to begin psychological counseling for my gender issues when another issue related to some family deaths has been dealt with. The idea of HRT is definitely on my mind. I've got to admit that I am a little older than some of the posts here that I have browsed indicate their posters are, and this could put some brakes on going on to full SRS. The point is though that today, I do not rule the idea out. I only have a couple of years until I retire, and then it may be girl time for extended periods of time.
I was recently "outed" by a family member that learned about Vicky from someone whom I had known through a church and whom I thought was under clergy privilege and restriction about revealing confidences. This may be putting my volunteer work with two youth organizations in jeopardy, but the emphasis that I see here on youth issues makes me wonder if it may be time to be me as TG, and to put some of my energy toward young people with gender issues.
I hope to be a contributing member of this "community" and while I can be friendly and compassionate, I can also let an outrageous sense of humor loose from time to time. I do try to think before typing!!! Glad to be here.
