I wish my mom would give me at least something small like that... saying I should've been born a boy. Contrarily, she says she always knew I would be a girl, and called me by my birth name from early in her pregnancy. By the time I was four, though, I was already refusing to wear the clothes she gave me to wear--- lots of pinks and purples--- and wanting to play more with toy cars than dolls. Regardless of the fact this persisted into my teens, when I began buying men's clothes and cutting my hair short, my mother still holds to the dream that I will be her beautiful daughter. But by this age (I will be 24 in 10 days), I think it's about time she realized that just isn't true. While I haven't outright told my mom I feel male, or am attracted to women, I don't hide it--- she knows I wear only men's clothes, and has finally reconciled herself to it, after years of refusing to shop with me if I was buying men's clothing. However, I'm just trying to keep that out of my mind--- I love my mom, but now live 1000 miles away from her, and I know I just need to do anything I can so I can feel okay, regardless of what other people think.
Oh, and about the name thing, I picked mine because it was the closest I could find to my birth name, and I liked the meaning (Rafe being short for Rafael, which means "healed").
