It was not easy to get here. But I'm 61 and very happy. I'm Kris. My wife died.I'm having to sell my house. H!ll, I lost at football last week! But, my world is great. How can I say that? Well, I've been where you are, and survived. I've been in worse places than I hope you go, I survived. Living is the key. You must decide that you WILL live. Then you do it. I tried to decide to commit suicide; tried to decide to live, tried ... to do a lot of things. I finally dicided to be me, a guy. No macho person. Just a guy. My take on it today is that it is a second chance. Kris is not a product of nature or nurturing - he is who I wanted him to be. I choose to be mild. I choose to be gentle. I choose to keep a lot of my female self. Females are cool. Learn from them. I am male. Trust me. I don't need bells, whistles, 'toys', to prove that to me. I have lived it. I use to stuff. I don't anymore. People see what they want to see. I have been in a couple (NOTE: couple; idiots fight in bars, I was an idiot. I was in the bar)of bar fights. A. I lost. B. wrong place C. I should have learned to duck (or duck out). Don't blame your trans stuff on the path you take. Blame you. You can transform yourself into God Almighty, BUT if you are in a stupid place and acting stupid, You are to blame.There is a YOU that you will carry with you. Make sure that you is on the right page. I'll check back for you. I will be here. The weather is cold here in the south. I'm cold, but my friends and my life are warm. Kris
