Hey, I've first came across this site a couple months ago and have been reading through here and there and finally decided to say something. You should know that I'm 18 male and pretty much addicted to video games. I feel pretty out of place. It seems like most people here are far older and already have been through a transition or at least understand where they fit into all these different gender descriptions. I for one am still pretty confused about it.
When I was about 12 or 13 friends of mine introduced me to a gaming chatroom where people would "cyber." While I might look back at the idea and laugh now, back then I spent a lot of late night time there. It was at this time I started pretending I was a girl online. I don't think it had as much to do with "cybering" as it did the opportunity to be recognized as a female. As time went on I would continue to long to be a girl. I would stay up late thinking about it, and even praying for it, if only for a day. The desire comes and goes, but it can be quite intense when it does. The problem for me is that I don't really feel bad or out of place as a male, like some might claim, I just experience a strong desire to be female.
When I was younger I would cross dress in my mom's clothes in private. This really isn't an option anymore though, as there is no way there are any girl's clothing in my house that would fit me now lol. Part of me always thought I'd outgrow it, and although it actually did subside for a couple years, it would come back. I should probably also include that before I was born I was expected to be a girl based on my heartbeat.
Anyway, most of you people probably don't want my life story but its just nice to be able to talk about it for once. So anyways, hi.
